Day 7-10
I didn't have much results these days. I'm not even approaching women. It seems I always feel tired and just want to stay in the house, sleep and dream, read books, plan. I don't even have enough will to lift weights in the gym.
Two days ago, I hung out with a friend of mine and while we were in the restaurant, a set of 2 women and 1 man looked at me from outside (I was the one who curiously looked at one of them first). My friend was laughing and recognized that something different is going on in me. He actually got interested in subliminals when I said it possibly can make him rich.
Yesterday, some late 20-something woman looked at me straight as I went out of 7-Eleven. Moreover, the pretty mid 20-something woman at a bus stop quite noticed I looked at her and I knew she noticed. I didn't approach her. I was more comfortable tinkering my phone and went somewhere else. While walking, another late 20-something chubby woman looked at me while talking to another guy. It seems I'm getting more and more noticeable, but why does it only happen in a certain province and not in others?
Just writing this, I'm feeling tired and want to sleep. Is it the subliminal or the stray dog's bite on my legs or the anti-tetano + another vaccine which I took yesterday?
I still have encounters with the woman for whom I developed oneitis. Often, I still get the feelings of concern, fear, hope, fleeting joy, jealousy, desire for her. But I'm learning a way to cope with it—imagining the feeling written on a glass tablet in the air with her image on one side, then I will shoot and break the glass through a bow and arrow, my eyes could see the glass shattered on the floor (I often save her image though by pushing it up to the sky till I no longer see it), all happens in my imagination. Sometimes, I draw on paper the tablet with the feeling written on it and the name of the woman, then I shoot the tablet using my pen and then shade it really dark, and then I will draw a circle and write a more neutral feeling... It's quite effective
What else, I was able to not see her as that perfect little angel I often imagined her to be. I actually saw her as a dwarf (quite unflattering, but a pretty dwarf though ). I also accidentally sniffed her, but now, I smelled a spoiled version of that intoxicating feminine perfume she often wears... Yeah, she's just another woman.
Let me add that I'm getting some attention from 2 adolescents in the school where I'm working. One gets too visible. Whenever there's chance, she greets me with some trivial stuff she notices about me, touches me tru high-five (which I gave back to her), and waved her hands and made strong eye contact from a distance (I'm training myself not to break eye contact now, eventually she's the one who turned away first). The other adolescent is too beautiful, I caught her twice smiling and she was looking at me, my eye contacts with her were weak however, because I never had prior conversations with her, I didn't even smile... Some cute young girl greets me often.
I didn't have much results these days. I'm not even approaching women. It seems I always feel tired and just want to stay in the house, sleep and dream, read books, plan. I don't even have enough will to lift weights in the gym.
Two days ago, I hung out with a friend of mine and while we were in the restaurant, a set of 2 women and 1 man looked at me from outside (I was the one who curiously looked at one of them first). My friend was laughing and recognized that something different is going on in me. He actually got interested in subliminals when I said it possibly can make him rich.
Yesterday, some late 20-something woman looked at me straight as I went out of 7-Eleven. Moreover, the pretty mid 20-something woman at a bus stop quite noticed I looked at her and I knew she noticed. I didn't approach her. I was more comfortable tinkering my phone and went somewhere else. While walking, another late 20-something chubby woman looked at me while talking to another guy. It seems I'm getting more and more noticeable, but why does it only happen in a certain province and not in others?
Just writing this, I'm feeling tired and want to sleep. Is it the subliminal or the stray dog's bite on my legs or the anti-tetano + another vaccine which I took yesterday?
I still have encounters with the woman for whom I developed oneitis. Often, I still get the feelings of concern, fear, hope, fleeting joy, jealousy, desire for her. But I'm learning a way to cope with it—imagining the feeling written on a glass tablet in the air with her image on one side, then I will shoot and break the glass through a bow and arrow, my eyes could see the glass shattered on the floor (I often save her image though by pushing it up to the sky till I no longer see it), all happens in my imagination. Sometimes, I draw on paper the tablet with the feeling written on it and the name of the woman, then I shoot the tablet using my pen and then shade it really dark, and then I will draw a circle and write a more neutral feeling... It's quite effective
What else, I was able to not see her as that perfect little angel I often imagined her to be. I actually saw her as a dwarf (quite unflattering, but a pretty dwarf though
). I also accidentally sniffed her, but now, I smelled a spoiled version of that intoxicating feminine perfume she often wears... Yeah, she's just another woman.Let me add that I'm getting some attention from 2 adolescents in the school where I'm working. One gets too visible. Whenever there's chance, she greets me with some trivial stuff she notices about me, touches me tru high-five (which I gave back to her), and waved her hands and made strong eye contact from a distance (I'm training myself not to break eye contact now, eventually she's the one who turned away first). The other adolescent is too beautiful, I caught her twice smiling and she was looking at me, my eye contacts with her were weak however, because I never had prior conversations with her, I didn't even smile... Some cute young girl greets me often.
"I am developing into a high value Alpha Male..."
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