11-02-2015, 11:31 AM
Stage 3 day 22:
I definitely like this stage a lot. I feel I have improved a lot recently. I'm more and more at peace, in control of my life, my fear has been reduced again. I realized yesterday it's been a very long time since I didn't miss any girls/woman in my life. I used to be a little bit sad if there were no girls around and I think I still had it 1/2 month ago. I feel like I have been like that for a long time but it's not true.
Also my posture /Body language have improved again. It's more alpha than it used to be from 2 AM run. It's like my body language is more natural than before.
I enjoy my time alone even more than I did. It's feel good to be alone. My neediness has decreased it seems. Also I'm able to talk with woman, to relate with woman more easily now. It's was a very slow process but I begin to really shine in that area now.
I can't really put words into that but my male side has improved a lot, I feel like a real Man much more now. When I speak with my friends I have a natural confidence about me. It's not perfection of course but I'm a lot better than I used to be. Only thing is I can't seem to remember how I was before
I also seems to be more at peace when I works on things. I don't do 10 things at a time like I used to, I feel okay if I do only one thing at a time. I'm more focused on my task, less distracted by my surroundings. When I get a message sometimes I forget to look at it because I'm not as much into it, I depend more on myself to feel good and not on external factor (self reliance).
I decided to let my hair grow like girls. I have curly hair and I always hide them by cutting them short. I wanted to let my hair grow but I never had the patience.
I definitely like this stage a lot. I feel I have improved a lot recently. I'm more and more at peace, in control of my life, my fear has been reduced again. I realized yesterday it's been a very long time since I didn't miss any girls/woman in my life. I used to be a little bit sad if there were no girls around and I think I still had it 1/2 month ago. I feel like I have been like that for a long time but it's not true.
Also my posture /Body language have improved again. It's more alpha than it used to be from 2 AM run. It's like my body language is more natural than before.
I enjoy my time alone even more than I did. It's feel good to be alone. My neediness has decreased it seems. Also I'm able to talk with woman, to relate with woman more easily now. It's was a very slow process but I begin to really shine in that area now.
I can't really put words into that but my male side has improved a lot, I feel like a real Man much more now. When I speak with my friends I have a natural confidence about me. It's not perfection of course but I'm a lot better than I used to be. Only thing is I can't seem to remember how I was before
I also seems to be more at peace when I works on things. I don't do 10 things at a time like I used to, I feel okay if I do only one thing at a time. I'm more focused on my task, less distracted by my surroundings. When I get a message sometimes I forget to look at it because I'm not as much into it, I depend more on myself to feel good and not on external factor (self reliance).
I decided to let my hair grow like girls. I have curly hair and I always hide them by cutting them short. I wanted to let my hair grow but I never had the patience.
