The ups of this program make the downs worse. The downs I experience are rarely rock bottom, but rather a reminder of the shit programming I used to have all the time. Being aware of that programming, and having experienced better, makes those old thoughts and feelings sting more.
I met my friend for a late lunch. As we're waiting for a table, two cute girls enter and wait. Shortly after my friend and I are seated, the girls are literally seated right next to us. From this point forward, and until they left, I was tense.
I was highly conscious of my body language, the tone and volume of my voice, the words that I spoke, the way I ate, etc. I was concerned with appearing cool and manly, even though—and here's the clincher—I had no intention whatsoever of talking to them. In fact, I hardly acknowledged their presence, because I didn't want them to think I was interested but too much of a pussy to do anything about it, and yet there I was preening myself.
Of course this tension and awareness of my own insecurity wreaks havoc on my confidence. Old doubts crept in: I'm almost 30 with very little sexual experience. My junk is too small. I'll cum too soon. Male-female dynamics are alien to me. I've never had a fruitful social life. My friends are losers. I'm a loser. I have so much catching up to do. It's too late for me, etc. Thankfully conversing with my friend kept my head above water.
When the girls left, a sense of ease came over me, but I wasn't happy about it. I haven't felt that self-conscious in a while. Come to think of it, I've not been feeling confident lately. I hate feeling like a shell of man, especially after knowing what it's like to feel powerful.
I have devoted 12 hours a day to this program so far, and that's how I intend to complete it. I expect to see strong, persistent results by the end of it, especially because it's my 2nd consecutive run. I do not want to be disappointed.
First run of AM6 helped me realize that low confidence is the root of all my problems. I will do ASC eventually, and I may spend a long time with it.
Directly or indirectly, almost all of the bullet points of AM6 are tied to confidence. So the question becomes, do you use a multi-stage program to attack the many branches of confidence, or do you devote laser-like focus i.e single stage to confidence itself, and then, in theory, watch those results branch out?
I met my friend for a late lunch. As we're waiting for a table, two cute girls enter and wait. Shortly after my friend and I are seated, the girls are literally seated right next to us. From this point forward, and until they left, I was tense.
I was highly conscious of my body language, the tone and volume of my voice, the words that I spoke, the way I ate, etc. I was concerned with appearing cool and manly, even though—and here's the clincher—I had no intention whatsoever of talking to them. In fact, I hardly acknowledged their presence, because I didn't want them to think I was interested but too much of a pussy to do anything about it, and yet there I was preening myself.
Of course this tension and awareness of my own insecurity wreaks havoc on my confidence. Old doubts crept in: I'm almost 30 with very little sexual experience. My junk is too small. I'll cum too soon. Male-female dynamics are alien to me. I've never had a fruitful social life. My friends are losers. I'm a loser. I have so much catching up to do. It's too late for me, etc. Thankfully conversing with my friend kept my head above water.
When the girls left, a sense of ease came over me, but I wasn't happy about it. I haven't felt that self-conscious in a while. Come to think of it, I've not been feeling confident lately. I hate feeling like a shell of man, especially after knowing what it's like to feel powerful.
I have devoted 12 hours a day to this program so far, and that's how I intend to complete it. I expect to see strong, persistent results by the end of it, especially because it's my 2nd consecutive run. I do not want to be disappointed.
First run of AM6 helped me realize that low confidence is the root of all my problems. I will do ASC eventually, and I may spend a long time with it.
Directly or indirectly, almost all of the bullet points of AM6 are tied to confidence. So the question becomes, do you use a multi-stage program to attack the many branches of confidence, or do you devote laser-like focus i.e single stage to confidence itself, and then, in theory, watch those results branch out?
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
