Overcoming vindictive feelings?

[apollolux]

I'm actually surprised anyone here spends any significant amount of time on my posts considering how rarely I get replies, probably because it's "not an AM6 or Magnet journal" and those seem to spur lots of controversy for whatever reasons.

Alex, I read your posts and I don't respond because I don't know what say that can help you deal with what you are going through.

I wish I could make your hurt go away!

I know one day, I will read about your success! What keeps me coming back to your posts are your knowledgeable insights on technology among other things. You're very smart for your age. Keep pressing on.

When I want to throw in the towel and give up... I pick myself up, brush myself off and say, "I want to see how this turns out!" I'm talking about life, mine, yours, everyone close to me, people I like, people I dislike. I'm really curious how it will all turn out for all of us!!!

Thank you for your consideration, 4Kingdoms, and I appreciate that you've been able to reasonably describe what you find interesting about my posts and have any sort of desire to help.

I think there are two significant parts to my smartness and intelligence that allow people to consider me positively: my willingness to learn new stuff and accept contradictions to already established beliefs or ideas; and my willingness to accept and acknowledge when someone is more knowledgeable than I am and/or has more expertise than do at something. This has so far served me well in my career, though it's half-and-half outside of it; I maintain I simply needed something tangible as proof (like the first appearance of abs) to give me confidence that I could apply such thought processes outside of technology education.

Now I just need to overcome some short-term procrastination and resume working on certain assignments.