10-19-2015, 03:55 AM
Stage 3 day 8:
My motivation is back now, The stage 2 was harder than I thought, I felt very lazy unmotivated.
I had a very intense fear dream one night with this stage 3. I realized a lot of stuff during the first days of this stage 3. I feel more at ease now, more secure, at peace doing what need to be done. On stage 2 I was like someone hiding from life, it was better in the last part of the stage 2 though.
I don't feel like reporting much even if my motivation is back. Actually I feel that reporting would actually be counter productive. I have my reason of course, it's not just a feeling.
Main reason is self improvement, If I don't know I'm improving I might want to improve even more. It's actually what the AM sub does so why try to go against it. I still report in case in a few years I want to know what really happen in my life. But I don't really like to read something twice, I get bored easily. On stage 2 It was even worst, I couldn't really focus on something without getting bored by it. Every deep subject was boring and unattractive, very unlike me, reading a book was impossible, just the back cover was boring.
I wouldn't have thought the Stage 3 would be so relaxing.
My motivation is back now, The stage 2 was harder than I thought, I felt very lazy unmotivated.
I had a very intense fear dream one night with this stage 3. I realized a lot of stuff during the first days of this stage 3. I feel more at ease now, more secure, at peace doing what need to be done. On stage 2 I was like someone hiding from life, it was better in the last part of the stage 2 though.
I don't feel like reporting much even if my motivation is back. Actually I feel that reporting would actually be counter productive. I have my reason of course, it's not just a feeling.
Main reason is self improvement, If I don't know I'm improving I might want to improve even more. It's actually what the AM sub does so why try to go against it. I still report in case in a few years I want to know what really happen in my life. But I don't really like to read something twice, I get bored easily. On stage 2 It was even worst, I couldn't really focus on something without getting bored by it. Every deep subject was boring and unattractive, very unlike me, reading a book was impossible, just the back cover was boring.
I wouldn't have thought the Stage 3 would be so relaxing.
