10-06-2015, 09:56 AM
Thanks everyone for your encouragements. Things are getting better now. My subconscious is propelling me to study more about inner work ( like inner child, shadow work etc). This is very interesting because I knew about them but never deeply looked at it. Something is shifted in me. I feel more ease with myself ( may be the books I am reading on guilt, shame etc) and I am not that hard on myself that I used to be. Although the negative voices in head are still there but I am able to manage them now. Confidence, assertiveness is still shit and needs improvement. I noticed that after subs I became more of a pussy and mellowed down my personality from a decently aggresive to kinda humble and pussy kind of behevriour. I am not sure if its a good sign. Things seems to be improving a bit and I subltly feel that my life is on track.
