10-05-2015, 04:54 PM
stage 3 day 21
I just had a talk with one of my female friends about previous relationships, and she kind of probed it out of me but I felt open and comfortable enough with her.
We talked about something called "sexual anorexia" which she goes to SLA (Sex and Love anonymous, another 12 step program). She said I might have it, and it really opened my eyes because based on my behavior and fear of women and sex, I can DEFINITELY relate to it. I looked it up a bit on wikipedia, and it seems like it makes sense if I had it, due to my previous relationship trauma with my ex-fiance. Sexual anorexia is like the complete opposite of sex addiction.
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I had an incident this afternoon where girls cockblocked the living hell out of me -_- I was trying to talk to this cute girl I've had a keen interest on. She's definitely LTR material, for what it's worth. She's super simple, doesn't wear makeup, didn't have her hair done at all today but something about her makes my heart sing (kekeke how cheesy) but the other girls I know I guess were jealous? I hope not. It totally ruined my mood today, and the girl I like (call her B for now) was like "you look like you're on the verge of being stressed out!"
If you told me 3 months ago, that I would be going through these frustrating problems, I wouldn't believe you. lol
I just had a talk with one of my female friends about previous relationships, and she kind of probed it out of me but I felt open and comfortable enough with her.
We talked about something called "sexual anorexia" which she goes to SLA (Sex and Love anonymous, another 12 step program). She said I might have it, and it really opened my eyes because based on my behavior and fear of women and sex, I can DEFINITELY relate to it. I looked it up a bit on wikipedia, and it seems like it makes sense if I had it, due to my previous relationship trauma with my ex-fiance. Sexual anorexia is like the complete opposite of sex addiction.
*****
I had an incident this afternoon where girls cockblocked the living hell out of me -_- I was trying to talk to this cute girl I've had a keen interest on. She's definitely LTR material, for what it's worth. She's super simple, doesn't wear makeup, didn't have her hair done at all today but something about her makes my heart sing (kekeke how cheesy) but the other girls I know I guess were jealous? I hope not. It totally ruined my mood today, and the girl I like (call her B for now) was like "you look like you're on the verge of being stressed out!"
If you told me 3 months ago, that I would be going through these frustrating problems, I wouldn't believe you. lol
