10-03-2015, 09:43 PM
stage 3 day 19
so after the big long spiel yesterday about not releasing, i couldn't take it anymore and released... and TODAY SUCKED! i have to curb my masturbation addiction. It really ruined my drive and I'm pretty sure I could have gotten laid today by the 9/10 & 9/10 blonde cause I spent literally 8 hours with her today, we went out to eat, flirted back and forth, she told me she can't have kids because of a health condition (where did that come from??? she wants the d?). she knows i'm leaving to india soon, said "you'll like country music by the time i'm done with you".... GOD i'm so freaking pissed i masturbated yesterday, I'm pretty sure I could have had the mother of all loads of energy today.
Also, yesterday after my post, i got a text from that one girl i mentioned a few days ago that i had this mutual "aggressive/abrasive/sarcastic" attraction with, saying stuff like i take sideways stabs at her with my words, i've been really rude to her lately, etc... even though what I say is with the best of intentions, i told her that it's because I actually like her and I totally didn't mean for it to be hurtful. BIG WTF moment! i felt so hurt. i just checked my facebook messages and she typed in something that she meant to type to her friend but she sent it to me instead by accident LMAO. it stated how fuqqed up what i said was. asdfasdl;kfja;sdkljf frustrating. but there is no shortage of bishes for me. i cleaned up my side of the street, stating i'm sorry she took it that way, that it was with good intentions. so how she handles it now is on her.
WOW. there's a lot of rounding off that needs to be done. The last 24 hours have been depressing D: But I'm gonna get that blondie one way or other. And maybe the other girl will come around (let's refer to her as purple, cos she has purple hair) soon... even tho she's probably using another dude as an emotional tampon and having sex with him too. Which had me jealous at first, but now it's no big deel.
so after the big long spiel yesterday about not releasing, i couldn't take it anymore and released... and TODAY SUCKED! i have to curb my masturbation addiction. It really ruined my drive and I'm pretty sure I could have gotten laid today by the 9/10 & 9/10 blonde cause I spent literally 8 hours with her today, we went out to eat, flirted back and forth, she told me she can't have kids because of a health condition (where did that come from??? she wants the d?). she knows i'm leaving to india soon, said "you'll like country music by the time i'm done with you".... GOD i'm so freaking pissed i masturbated yesterday, I'm pretty sure I could have had the mother of all loads of energy today.
Also, yesterday after my post, i got a text from that one girl i mentioned a few days ago that i had this mutual "aggressive/abrasive/sarcastic" attraction with, saying stuff like i take sideways stabs at her with my words, i've been really rude to her lately, etc... even though what I say is with the best of intentions, i told her that it's because I actually like her and I totally didn't mean for it to be hurtful. BIG WTF moment! i felt so hurt. i just checked my facebook messages and she typed in something that she meant to type to her friend but she sent it to me instead by accident LMAO. it stated how fuqqed up what i said was. asdfasdl;kfja;sdkljf frustrating. but there is no shortage of bishes for me. i cleaned up my side of the street, stating i'm sorry she took it that way, that it was with good intentions. so how she handles it now is on her.
WOW. there's a lot of rounding off that needs to be done. The last 24 hours have been depressing D: But I'm gonna get that blondie one way or other. And maybe the other girl will come around (let's refer to her as purple, cos she has purple hair) soon... even tho she's probably using another dude as an emotional tampon and having sex with him too. Which had me jealous at first, but now it's no big deel.
