10-01-2015, 10:20 AM
Ok day 32
Just a heads up as to the way this sub is going. Firstly I am still tired listening to it but a lot less so where I can now get out of bed in the morning and I don't nod off while I play it during the day. I'm listening with the masked track at night through sleepphones and ultrasonic through headphones during the day. I want all of this baby going into my head. I'm also managing a consistant 12 hours a day which is enough for me.
My sexual preferences have been occupying my mind a lot recently, as in how do I like sex? Rather than go through a list of my kinks, suffice it to say I am clear in my mind how I would like this sex thing to go, ie to define perfect in this context as "she likes to receive what I like to give and vice versa".
I've also noticed my standards dropping and have started to view women as meat without caring about who they are as people. I'm not happy with that but I'm putting it down to a quirk of the sub
I've also been changing venues when I go out and am still suffering from odd delays, especially forgetting my glasses or wallet when I go out..staple things that I never forgot before and keep delaying me.
I also have this desire to go out on my own to places in the evening. This isn't a strong desire but a thought that makes sense to me, given my current circle of friends (not from AM!)
On another note I've been taken to blasting out Abba songs in my car. This is weird because I would never have admitted before that I liked them or certainly playing them in my car loudly in case i was thought of as gay. But I don't seem to give a s**t. I'm also feeling more and more desirous of a black/half cast/mixed race type female...never considered them before but I really do find them sexy
Just a heads up as to the way this sub is going. Firstly I am still tired listening to it but a lot less so where I can now get out of bed in the morning and I don't nod off while I play it during the day. I'm listening with the masked track at night through sleepphones and ultrasonic through headphones during the day. I want all of this baby going into my head. I'm also managing a consistant 12 hours a day which is enough for me.
My sexual preferences have been occupying my mind a lot recently, as in how do I like sex? Rather than go through a list of my kinks, suffice it to say I am clear in my mind how I would like this sex thing to go, ie to define perfect in this context as "she likes to receive what I like to give and vice versa".
I've also noticed my standards dropping and have started to view women as meat without caring about who they are as people. I'm not happy with that but I'm putting it down to a quirk of the sub
I've also been changing venues when I go out and am still suffering from odd delays, especially forgetting my glasses or wallet when I go out..staple things that I never forgot before and keep delaying me.
I also have this desire to go out on my own to places in the evening. This isn't a strong desire but a thought that makes sense to me, given my current circle of friends (not from AM!)
On another note I've been taken to blasting out Abba songs in my car. This is weird because I would never have admitted before that I liked them or certainly playing them in my car loudly in case i was thought of as gay. But I don't seem to give a s**t. I'm also feeling more and more desirous of a black/half cast/mixed race type female...never considered them before but I really do find them sexy
