10-01-2015, 07:57 AM
(10-01-2015, 01:20 AM)Dmitry Wrote: My AM6 chart:
"2014":
Stage 1 - "like good, faithful friend, who encourages me in the tough times of my life". Keyword: "THINGS ARE NOT SO BAD".
Stage 2 - "5 girls in two weeks in my bed & almost got in trouble with the group of guys, who got hostile attitude toward me". Keyword: "ANIMALISTIC SEXUAL DRIVE"
Stage 3 - "Stuck! Guilt, Fear, Resistence (with big R), "Fight club with acid burn scene". Disturbing. No advances. Keyword: "STOP!"
Stage 4 - "after Stage 3 - Stage 4 is like that acid burn scene then Tyler finally make a relief for guy". Nothing to say more than: relief from Stage 3. Keyword: "RELIEF"
Stage 5 - "maybe some Stage 2 great glimpses but Stage 3 experience overshadowed it. Keyword: "MAYBE?!"
Stage 6 - "don't remember anything, Stage 3 ruined it all". Keyword: "NOTHING SPECIAL"
"2015":
Stage 1 - "why I'v been wasting my time?!, not goal commitment, feel like a slime". Keyword: "WASTING MY TIME"
Stage 2 - "very good but was aggressive without a reason. Every moment in social environment I was careful about aggressive tendencies, attitude, thoughts, emotions. Was really hard and annoying like "a Murder Within" I must to contain and don't show to anybody . Keyword: "I'M A MURDER"
Stage 3 "WOW! At last!!! I was waiting for it! Pure, congruent, warm feeling of POWER. BS is not so assholish as Stage 2, much more refined (indeed), no fear, feel confident... and this time I started to feel the true power of Stage 3 - its amazing. Keyword: "CONGRUENCE"
Stage 4,5,6 - to be continued.
BTW, AM helped me to show my psychological issues. AM+psychotherapy=great combo.
If you interested in more details, especially about "2014" Stage 3, I will tell my experience.
Man your second run looks almost exactly like mine. I was so angry and aggressive during stage 2, now feeling that power in stage 3. Had more resistance during stage 2 than 3 tbh.
Turning super saiyan.