09-21-2015, 11:31 AM
Stage 2 day 12:
I had some resistance at the beginning of the stage but now I feel much better. I feel really different that on stage 1. No motivation to learn astrology right now.
My aggressiveness is increasing, I did some crazy thing today.
But I know there is some resistance still because I didn't meditate for a long time now. Usually I avoid it when something is bothering me. I feel good but I know I'm avoiding something. I have been studying pheromone again, and I feel that it is to avoid my real self. Some sort of camouflage.
Problem is I don't have any motivation to fight that beast. Very lazy as**le I am.
Hard to deal with my sex hunger, I feel that I will explode at some point. Problem is that somayMetimes I get horny at home but when the girl is right in front of me I find some lame excuse, it's improving though. At least I recognize it.
Life is getting better. Second run is much easier obviously. Maybe I will do a third run if it feels so good
I had some resistance at the beginning of the stage but now I feel much better. I feel really different that on stage 1. No motivation to learn astrology right now.
My aggressiveness is increasing, I did some crazy thing today.
But I know there is some resistance still because I didn't meditate for a long time now. Usually I avoid it when something is bothering me. I feel good but I know I'm avoiding something. I have been studying pheromone again, and I feel that it is to avoid my real self. Some sort of camouflage.
Problem is I don't have any motivation to fight that beast. Very lazy as**le I am.
Hard to deal with my sex hunger, I feel that I will explode at some point. Problem is that somayMetimes I get horny at home but when the girl is right in front of me I find some lame excuse, it's improving though. At least I recognize it.
Life is getting better. Second run is much easier obviously. Maybe I will do a third run if it feels so good
