I'm noticing something. The cognitive dissonance that I mentioned earlier. I have a better understanding of what it is now. I sometimes consciously expect some of the same things I've always felt (for ex. nervousness in new situations), and because of that I may not want to do it, but I'm finding that those thoughts are irrelevant and I'm comfortable when I'm actually in the situation.
In other words, I guess my conscious level of confidence sometimes doesn't match my actual comfort level. It's odd.
Also, I've been watching pron pretty much every other day. A relationship with a hot girl would be convenient right now, but I don't feel guilty about pron. I do consciously think I could find something that would be a more productive use of my time though.
From now on, I'm using a stopwatch to keep track of my sub hours to get myself in the habit. Today was 15 hours. About 3 through earbuds
In other words, I guess my conscious level of confidence sometimes doesn't match my actual comfort level. It's odd.
Also, I've been watching pron pretty much every other day. A relationship with a hot girl would be convenient right now, but I don't feel guilty about pron. I do consciously think I could find something that would be a more productive use of my time though.
From now on, I'm using a stopwatch to keep track of my sub hours to get myself in the habit. Today was 15 hours. About 3 through earbuds
