09-10-2015, 03:22 PM
So its been a long time since I came on here. I'm still Running Am6 and I'm on my second run. At this point I've been more confident than the last run, I'm more centered emotionally. But there are some times when I feel shaken like I've lost balance. I'm still trying to push through the left over anxiety still left but this is the small crucial anxiety that doesn't feel like its going to go away. I also don't feel like I've integrated the sub completely because sometimes I get weird reactions from people. For ex. I was in my college class and when I sat down this girl sat next to me. The girl was not at all attractive but I couldn't tell at that moment because I never looked at her. So after like 45 minutes into the class I could feel like this girl might be interested in me. So I kinda got in my head trying to understand why she liked me, deep inside I got anxious and uncomfortable but I don't think she could tell. Few mins after she was covering her legs shaking like she had to pee. She also had on a dress so she covered her knees completely. So one min she had her feet pointed at me then she was closed off. The worst part was as soon as I walked outside to get a drink of water, she moved behind me, sitting behind me so I couldn't see her. Maybe its just in my head but in my other classes I've had girls run up to talk to me, one tried to make me think dirty lol.So I'm kinda out of balance, trying to find a median
