09-04-2015, 05:46 PM
Just a current update:
Recently with it being a new year of college and all, I haven't been hanging out that much (due to scheduling with other people with our new schedules and people not returning my texts).
It's the weekend. And for the first time in a VERY long time, I'm on campus, and I have no one to hang with tonight. I'll be honest, I feel pretty lonely. Some of my friends went back home this weekend (holiday weekend)...but I didn't know I'd be left all alone essentially.
On the bright side, I did go to this new pizza place that opened up yesterday. Today they were giving out free pizza, and I went with one of my friends.
Also, I feel like I'm rusty when it comes to interacting with girls. I did no in person interactions over the summer really. And now I'm all rusty...I hate it.
Also, I have a cognitive dissonance right now (I think that's what this is called). I logically feel like I "should" respond a certain way, but many times I don't feel anything. In many cases, it's for the better though. For example, if I don't do something right I may logically think I should feel terrible. But that feeling is very weak to nonexistent. I find this weird. But I think it's for the best
I do however feel lonely and it makes sense to me that I feel that way. I don't like feeling this way.
Recently with it being a new year of college and all, I haven't been hanging out that much (due to scheduling with other people with our new schedules and people not returning my texts).
It's the weekend. And for the first time in a VERY long time, I'm on campus, and I have no one to hang with tonight. I'll be honest, I feel pretty lonely. Some of my friends went back home this weekend (holiday weekend)...but I didn't know I'd be left all alone essentially.
On the bright side, I did go to this new pizza place that opened up yesterday. Today they were giving out free pizza, and I went with one of my friends.
Also, I feel like I'm rusty when it comes to interacting with girls. I did no in person interactions over the summer really. And now I'm all rusty...I hate it.
Also, I have a cognitive dissonance right now (I think that's what this is called). I logically feel like I "should" respond a certain way, but many times I don't feel anything. In many cases, it's for the better though. For example, if I don't do something right I may logically think I should feel terrible. But that feeling is very weak to nonexistent. I find this weird. But I think it's for the best
I do however feel lonely and it makes sense to me that I feel that way. I don't like feeling this way.
