08-31-2015, 09:04 AM
Hey everyone! It's been a little while, but here's a life update:
In regards to my personal life, I recently joined a unique network marketing company that really has a lot of potential. I've been working on generating leads mainly for the business. I have also talked with local business about using some of the products. All I can say is that salons are COMPLETE bitches! (Feels soo great to put it out there!) Salons are bitches because it's damn near impossible to actually speak with the owner on the phone. They want act like they're busy practically all the time. And the receptionist who answers the phone acts like their protecting the president or something...it's ridiculous and stupid.
What I really didn't like though was one salon that I showed our products to, and they liked it, and asked for samples. I never actually got a chance to hear how their clients liked it. It got to the point where they hung up on me when I called. THAT'S BULLSHIT. Now if they had not asked for samples or were not interested in it, then perhaps that kind of a response is more acceptable. But for you to ask for the product and actually show it to the owner...it's complete bullshit that I can't find out how their clients liked it. Really, that incident just made me feel like they're unprofessional and think they're "untouchable". No. No. No. Salon owners are no more special than any other business owner. They need to act like it and get their shit together in a professional manner.
Now that that's out of my system, the rest is more focused on changes I've noticed with the sub
Over time, I've just been listening to EPRHA for 8 hrs at night. Recently, I've been able to increase it some days, but I always aimed for at least 8 hrs. I can say without a doubt that I don't have nearly as much resistance as I did before. I don't feel hatred towards people that have what I've always wanted. Thoughts about the past are less frequent and they aren't nearly as traumatizing. I feel like overall I have changed in some way and I'm ready to get where I want to be in life. Before I would fluctuate between hope and feeling like I can get where I want to and despair about wondering if I'll never make it. I now just feel "ready" for whatever is going to happen.
I wouldn't say that all my fear is completely gone. Yes, I do feel more comfortable consistently about myself, but fear isn't really gone. I mean things like thinking "Oh, should I go talk to that girl or not". Or "I hope this goes well". I would say the level of fear has been somewhat reduced. If there was something that could help eliminate it COMPLETELY, that'd be awesome!
So, overall, I thought EPRHA was hell for me when I started (and it was). But somehow over time, I now feel like a somewhat overall changed person. I still have until the middle of October to finish my full 6 months. That's another thing too! I stopped thinking about how long it'll take to "work" or make a difference. Playing the sub at night just became a part of my scheduled routine. I just started doing it without really thinking "Oh, I hope this works soon!" I remember a while back, it got to the point where I was feeling desperate and I thought it was pointless to keep playing the sub, but by my diligence I wanted to finish out what I started even though I didn't see it working. And now I know that something has changed.
Right now, I'm just thinking about where I'd want to go after this with the subs I play. It'll either be DAOS, BIATBWS, or AM6. One of those 3 for sure.
In regards to my personal life, I recently joined a unique network marketing company that really has a lot of potential. I've been working on generating leads mainly for the business. I have also talked with local business about using some of the products. All I can say is that salons are COMPLETE bitches! (Feels soo great to put it out there!) Salons are bitches because it's damn near impossible to actually speak with the owner on the phone. They want act like they're busy practically all the time. And the receptionist who answers the phone acts like their protecting the president or something...it's ridiculous and stupid.
What I really didn't like though was one salon that I showed our products to, and they liked it, and asked for samples. I never actually got a chance to hear how their clients liked it. It got to the point where they hung up on me when I called. THAT'S BULLSHIT. Now if they had not asked for samples or were not interested in it, then perhaps that kind of a response is more acceptable. But for you to ask for the product and actually show it to the owner...it's complete bullshit that I can't find out how their clients liked it. Really, that incident just made me feel like they're unprofessional and think they're "untouchable". No. No. No. Salon owners are no more special than any other business owner. They need to act like it and get their shit together in a professional manner.
Now that that's out of my system, the rest is more focused on changes I've noticed with the sub
Over time, I've just been listening to EPRHA for 8 hrs at night. Recently, I've been able to increase it some days, but I always aimed for at least 8 hrs. I can say without a doubt that I don't have nearly as much resistance as I did before. I don't feel hatred towards people that have what I've always wanted. Thoughts about the past are less frequent and they aren't nearly as traumatizing. I feel like overall I have changed in some way and I'm ready to get where I want to be in life. Before I would fluctuate between hope and feeling like I can get where I want to and despair about wondering if I'll never make it. I now just feel "ready" for whatever is going to happen.
I wouldn't say that all my fear is completely gone. Yes, I do feel more comfortable consistently about myself, but fear isn't really gone. I mean things like thinking "Oh, should I go talk to that girl or not". Or "I hope this goes well". I would say the level of fear has been somewhat reduced. If there was something that could help eliminate it COMPLETELY, that'd be awesome!
So, overall, I thought EPRHA was hell for me when I started (and it was). But somehow over time, I now feel like a somewhat overall changed person. I still have until the middle of October to finish my full 6 months. That's another thing too! I stopped thinking about how long it'll take to "work" or make a difference. Playing the sub at night just became a part of my scheduled routine. I just started doing it without really thinking "Oh, I hope this works soon!" I remember a while back, it got to the point where I was feeling desperate and I thought it was pointless to keep playing the sub, but by my diligence I wanted to finish out what I started even though I didn't see it working. And now I know that something has changed.
Right now, I'm just thinking about where I'd want to go after this with the subs I play. It'll either be DAOS, BIATBWS, or AM6. One of those 3 for sure.
