WildFlower's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[WildFlower]

Must have been the tiredness - last night was business as usual. Ended up bumping into a friend I haven't seen in a while, and his girlfriend and another taken girl with them both proceeded to chat me up. I was wearing a red checked shirt that looks, I suppose, a bit like a table cloth. Anyway, these two girls both kept complimenting my shirt. To her boyfriend she said "Why don't you get a shirt like WildFlower?", "Why don't you take style advice of WildFlower?" I tried to diffuse the situation by being self-deprecating and saying that my shirt looks like a picnic cloth to which she replied "I want to have a picnic on you". Nothing would ever come from the flirting - I respect my friend and have values - but this is the kind of thing I've been used to, not the standoffishness from the night before.

Got a lot of attention from Women all night. Seriously, it was just one women after another. I'm so undesperate, that I'm totally take it or leave it.

Ok, now you're like a magnet lol. So how did the guys respond to all that attention that you were getting?

The guys are use to it. My friend didn't object to his Girlfriend flirting with me (it was her flirting with me, not me flirting with her) but I sensed his discomfort and tried to dissipate it.

My voice has changed a lot this past month, I'm louder and more expressive. I sometimes talk softer, sometimes deeper, but I don't seem to have much conscious control over it - it all comes completely natural. And your going to have a battle on your hands going against what's natural. Off course natural in this case has been subliminally introduced and enhanced, but that doesn't stop it from feeling natural (whilst still being completely obvious). Shannon mentioned in his journal how his confidence now feels so him and that is exactly the same in my case. What has been introduced has become so organic and natural that it's just me. Whether that's because it's my second time through the set, or whether it's something unique to the 2011 set I don't know, but I'm totally respondent and in sync with the sub that we feel one and the same - the changes are me, they don't feel like alien seductions in my subconscious.