Day 13-
Just caught on to this feeling! It's a feeling of... I have no idea. I'm guessing being ignored? Like, not being if value of someone's attention. Very small meaningless reason as to why this feeling came up. Just glad I caught and feels good to know I have just a little bit more work to do. Honestly I feel as though the sub ie bringing to light all these little hidden issues and emotions that I have become so used to and those same emotions that have become a part of me. The programming of the Subs and the programming of my thoughts & experiences had such a big contrast, that I sometimes feel the friction between the two. I realize sometimes people don't take help, not because they don't WANT it, because they sure as hell know they need it though, but because they're not comfortable with change.
Day 19-
Lots of vivid realistic dreams. Definitely the Sub's doing because they're things that have been bothering me on the low.
Day 20-
Insecurities Pop up big time.
Day 22-
Today something brought up some emotions that I don't really like. It got brought up when I wasn't listening to the subs though. Erm.
Day 23-
So I just read on the site what eprha includes and it said release of guilt/shame/ fear and I was like woah! In the beginning of listening to this sub I had a WHOLE lot of guilt! During the time after I ended the relationship I talked about in previous posts. Now, I don't have that painful heavy feeling in my chest or stomach anymore (that's how guilt feels like for me). Just realized. Its pretty cool to see just how far I've matured emotionally from day one to today! But I have a lot more days left fortunately/unfortunately. Next sub is going to be ASC 5g. Can't wait, literally can't wait hahaha.
Day 26- been very irritable today. More annoyed with things. Still have some issued that do pop up such as lack of trust towards people or just lack of communication?
Day 28-
Feel so much better. I notice that I still have bit of guilt in me, but not so much fear. I'm not as self conscious in meeting new people as I was before in the past.
One more thing to add is that, I'm starting to speak my mind more! And I'm still having intense vivid dreams.
Just caught on to this feeling! It's a feeling of... I have no idea. I'm guessing being ignored? Like, not being if value of someone's attention. Very small meaningless reason as to why this feeling came up. Just glad I caught and feels good to know I have just a little bit more work to do. Honestly I feel as though the sub ie bringing to light all these little hidden issues and emotions that I have become so used to and those same emotions that have become a part of me. The programming of the Subs and the programming of my thoughts & experiences had such a big contrast, that I sometimes feel the friction between the two. I realize sometimes people don't take help, not because they don't WANT it, because they sure as hell know they need it though, but because they're not comfortable with change.
Day 19-
Lots of vivid realistic dreams. Definitely the Sub's doing because they're things that have been bothering me on the low.
Day 20-
Insecurities Pop up big time.
Day 22-
Today something brought up some emotions that I don't really like. It got brought up when I wasn't listening to the subs though. Erm.
Day 23-
So I just read on the site what eprha includes and it said release of guilt/shame/ fear and I was like woah! In the beginning of listening to this sub I had a WHOLE lot of guilt! During the time after I ended the relationship I talked about in previous posts. Now, I don't have that painful heavy feeling in my chest or stomach anymore (that's how guilt feels like for me). Just realized. Its pretty cool to see just how far I've matured emotionally from day one to today! But I have a lot more days left fortunately/unfortunately. Next sub is going to be ASC 5g. Can't wait, literally can't wait hahaha.
Day 26- been very irritable today. More annoyed with things. Still have some issued that do pop up such as lack of trust towards people or just lack of communication?
Day 28-
Feel so much better. I notice that I still have bit of guilt in me, but not so much fear. I'm not as self conscious in meeting new people as I was before in the past.
One more thing to add is that, I'm starting to speak my mind more! And I'm still having intense vivid dreams.
