The news is out; I'll be running AM6 much sooner than I expected; I feel that my life is on a downward spiral.
- I'm not sticking with my habits
- I'm having mood swings
- I've had a string of bad days (performances) while busking
- I "don't feel" like exercising all that much (and AM makes me want to go right away); I refuse to get fat
- I feel passive, and not very masculine.
- Getting distracted and un-disciplined
- I don't feel clear attraction from women; sometimes I notice interest or a smile, but I don't really register it.
However, I'm surprised at how well calibrated I am in unknown situations; I've had to interview kids at their house for a research project, and I'm 100% at ease and able to ask the right questions that reaches a 10 year old. Surprised myself.
I was asked to go on camera and do a quick interview downtown, and my charisma and humor sparked up unexpectedly. So there's certainly something good going on.
The AM6 run kind of broke me emotionally near the end, so one run didn't do the trick. A second run will drive the information home.
The only caveat is that I'll to run it alongside Brain Evolution, unexpectedly.
I expect to start in the next 1-14 days.
- I'm not sticking with my habits
- I'm having mood swings
- I've had a string of bad days (performances) while busking
- I "don't feel" like exercising all that much (and AM makes me want to go right away); I refuse to get fat
- I feel passive, and not very masculine.
- Getting distracted and un-disciplined
- I don't feel clear attraction from women; sometimes I notice interest or a smile, but I don't really register it.
However, I'm surprised at how well calibrated I am in unknown situations; I've had to interview kids at their house for a research project, and I'm 100% at ease and able to ask the right questions that reaches a 10 year old. Surprised myself.
I was asked to go on camera and do a quick interview downtown, and my charisma and humor sparked up unexpectedly. So there's certainly something good going on.
The AM6 run kind of broke me emotionally near the end, so one run didn't do the trick. A second run will drive the information home.
The only caveat is that I'll to run it alongside Brain Evolution, unexpectedly.
I expect to start in the next 1-14 days.
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