07-30-2015, 02:05 PM
Day 6
Here's the thing, we all know that our thoughts influence our reality. In the beggining of using these subs or even before i started using these subs the relationship between my friend and I wasnt going too good. I was needy, upset, felt some sort of abandoment etc... so I was having these thougts and they started making the situation worse and worse. I started using this sub and now our friendship is actually better, like she actually calls me now and etc... What I've noticed is that my train of thought when it comes to our friendship doesnt dwell on to negativity. No more neediness and all that. So woot!!
Keep catching myself not listening to Subs when I have perfect time to! *sigh*
Day 7-
Wooot 1 week down. *happy dance* and a lot more to go lol Anyways, I'm actually a bit upset right now about something, (I know, very mysterious) but what im noticing is that im seeing the good in the situation, im bringing myself to be a bit more positive about it. Not sure if something like this is in the script or not, but I like it!
*sigh* starting new job on Monday, &I'm feeling really insecure about going there and meeting new people tbh. This only happens when I'm going to a new environment. Hopefully this feeling fades.
So frustrating when old programming starts to come up! Feelings of not being good enough, abandonment, betrayal, also I believe. Nothing to do with my friend, but just a general feeling. Awful thoughts running through my head.
sucks.
Here's the thing, we all know that our thoughts influence our reality. In the beggining of using these subs or even before i started using these subs the relationship between my friend and I wasnt going too good. I was needy, upset, felt some sort of abandoment etc... so I was having these thougts and they started making the situation worse and worse. I started using this sub and now our friendship is actually better, like she actually calls me now and etc... What I've noticed is that my train of thought when it comes to our friendship doesnt dwell on to negativity. No more neediness and all that. So woot!!
Keep catching myself not listening to Subs when I have perfect time to! *sigh*
Day 7-
Wooot 1 week down. *happy dance* and a lot more to go lol Anyways, I'm actually a bit upset right now about something, (I know, very mysterious) but what im noticing is that im seeing the good in the situation, im bringing myself to be a bit more positive about it. Not sure if something like this is in the script or not, but I like it!
*sigh* starting new job on Monday, &I'm feeling really insecure about going there and meeting new people tbh. This only happens when I'm going to a new environment. Hopefully this feeling fades.
So frustrating when old programming starts to come up! Feelings of not being good enough, abandonment, betrayal, also I believe. Nothing to do with my friend, but just a general feeling. Awful thoughts running through my head.
sucks.
