06-20-2015, 07:38 PM
My overall usage was:
USAGE per day - 8 to 12 Hours (depending on schedule)
MASKED - 772 Hours (exact)
ULTRA - 925 Hours (approx)
TOTAL HOURS - 1,697 (approx)
TOTAL DAYS - 185
AVE per day - 9.17
Results:
Emotional Pain Relief: B
I almost always felt calm when / after using EPRHA. Though I still had moments of painful emotions.
I tend to get over painful stuff a bit faster than I used to.
Emotional Healing: D
I didn't notice much of this.
Though I do think I'm overall emotionally healthier.
Guilt / Shame / Fear Release: C
I rarely notice guilt / shame.
I have been having nightmares almost every night, so I assume fear is being worked on.
Near the end (Day 160 to 185), I had a few rare urges to do wild things (such as piss in a public mailbox or headbutt furniture to get WTF reactions from people), but common sense reminded me that I have nothing to really gain from doing random, stupid things.
I still have anxiety and still feel uncomfortable in new (or uncommon) situations.
Mental / Emotional Maturity Improvement: D
Didn't notice much of this, except maybe once or twice.
I do try and stay grounded / down-to-earth.
Self-Forgiveness: F
Noticed nothing / no improvement (as far as I know).
Forgiveness of Others: D
I noticed a little bit of this. I'm willing to give some people a 2nd chance.
I still get pretty annoyed at people who have smug attitudes (e.g. I'm superior to you and therefore have the right to steal your stuff), negging / put downs, unfairness, etc.
Letting Go of the Past: F
Not at all. I still reminisce quite regularly.
Self-Validation: C
I have noticed some nice improvements in this area.
I'm less interested in getting / impressing women, and I have less Oneitis kind of feelings (though I still have these feelings at times).
Plans:
Next up will be LTU 5G,
It should help reinforce alot of EPRHA, and also add some new stuff that seems useful.
After that, I will likely aim at losing my virginity with an AYP.
USAGE per day - 8 to 12 Hours (depending on schedule)
MASKED - 772 Hours (exact)
ULTRA - 925 Hours (approx)
TOTAL HOURS - 1,697 (approx)
TOTAL DAYS - 185
AVE per day - 9.17
Results:
Emotional Pain Relief: B
I almost always felt calm when / after using EPRHA. Though I still had moments of painful emotions.
I tend to get over painful stuff a bit faster than I used to.
Emotional Healing: D
I didn't notice much of this.
Though I do think I'm overall emotionally healthier.
Guilt / Shame / Fear Release: C
I rarely notice guilt / shame.
I have been having nightmares almost every night, so I assume fear is being worked on.
Near the end (Day 160 to 185), I had a few rare urges to do wild things (such as piss in a public mailbox or headbutt furniture to get WTF reactions from people), but common sense reminded me that I have nothing to really gain from doing random, stupid things.
I still have anxiety and still feel uncomfortable in new (or uncommon) situations.
Mental / Emotional Maturity Improvement: D
Didn't notice much of this, except maybe once or twice.
I do try and stay grounded / down-to-earth.
Self-Forgiveness: F
Noticed nothing / no improvement (as far as I know).
Forgiveness of Others: D
I noticed a little bit of this. I'm willing to give some people a 2nd chance.
I still get pretty annoyed at people who have smug attitudes (e.g. I'm superior to you and therefore have the right to steal your stuff), negging / put downs, unfairness, etc.
Letting Go of the Past: F
Not at all. I still reminisce quite regularly.
Self-Validation: C
I have noticed some nice improvements in this area.
I'm less interested in getting / impressing women, and I have less Oneitis kind of feelings (though I still have these feelings at times).
Plans:
Next up will be LTU 5G,
It should help reinforce alot of EPRHA, and also add some new stuff that seems useful.
After that, I will likely aim at losing my virginity with an AYP.
