02-03-2011, 10:17 AM
So far, stage 6 feels a lot like stage 5 at this point. I've been in a better mood as of late and people's negativity doesn't seem to affect me as much as it did before. I'm catching myself being friendlier to people in general (saying "hi" and stuff) and making more eye contact. I will probably catch the full brunt of Alpha Male 2010 once I complete stage 6 on the 4th of March... the scripts will take a while still to compile and install and then execute (computer geek stuff, I know. Deal with it! 
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And what I am about to write about may raise a few eyebrows but here goes...
I've been posting in the Playboy forums and also getting to know some of the models. And... it's actually easier than I thought. The majority of the models that I have spoken to are actually down to earth and not snobby (most would think that because they errantly attach a status to them just because they posed for, or are affiliated with Playboy). Thou shall not put p*ssy on pedestal! Playboy models are people too. Treat them as such!
And with that being said, I will also tease them just like I tease the Hooters girls I know. They are all the same!
It's going to be very interesting when I start SM later in March. Since I'm beginning to really open myself up and talk more instead of being a boring and shy wallflower, the rest of the year is bound to get crazy for me.
I'm catching more women giving me hot (but cautious) looks... like they will look right at me for a few seconds and I catch them and then they look away and smile. Uh-huh... busted!
My confidence is notching higher and higher and with that, I will be more able to open up and speak what's really on my mind. SM 2011 may help with that regard some and I know Alpha Male 2011 definitely will, when I start that late this year.
I had an interesting dream last night. It involved one of my nieces. In my dream, she was crying and sad because she had a breakup with her gf (one of my nieces is bi) and I told her her that she was probably acting too needy and stuff which didn't sit very well with her so I told her to back off and so on. It was an interesting dream to say the least.
Then the dream switched up and I was in the hospital doing my usual work and one worker (a she) that works in the CCU was walking down the hall. It was funny because she is a light skinned black and she had purple highlights in her hair and I was strangely attracted to her hair. We started talking and she was wanting me to kiss her. I kissed her on the cheek and my lips were so dry I couldn't kiss right. So I said hang on for a moment and I moisten them up and then kiss her again. Then the dream fades.
What a crazy night I had last night! lol
).And what I am about to write about may raise a few eyebrows but here goes...
I've been posting in the Playboy forums and also getting to know some of the models. And... it's actually easier than I thought. The majority of the models that I have spoken to are actually down to earth and not snobby (most would think that because they errantly attach a status to them just because they posed for, or are affiliated with Playboy). Thou shall not put p*ssy on pedestal! Playboy models are people too. Treat them as such!
And with that being said, I will also tease them just like I tease the Hooters girls I know. They are all the same!
It's going to be very interesting when I start SM later in March. Since I'm beginning to really open myself up and talk more instead of being a boring and shy wallflower, the rest of the year is bound to get crazy for me
. I'm catching more women giving me hot (but cautious) looks... like they will look right at me for a few seconds and I catch them and then they look away and smile. Uh-huh... busted!
My confidence is notching higher and higher and with that, I will be more able to open up and speak what's really on my mind. SM 2011 may help with that regard some and I know Alpha Male 2011 definitely will, when I start that late this year.
I had an interesting dream last night. It involved one of my nieces. In my dream, she was crying and sad because she had a breakup with her gf (one of my nieces is bi) and I told her her that she was probably acting too needy and stuff which didn't sit very well with her so I told her to back off and so on. It was an interesting dream to say the least.
Then the dream switched up and I was in the hospital doing my usual work and one worker (a she) that works in the CCU was walking down the hall. It was funny because she is a light skinned black and she had purple highlights in her hair and I was strangely attracted to her hair. We started talking and she was wanting me to kiss her. I kissed her on the cheek and my lips were so dry I couldn't kiss right. So I said hang on for a moment and I moisten them up and then kiss her again. Then the dream fades.
What a crazy night I had last night! lol
Get your pickles!!!
