Masterchief's Alpha Male Journal

[Jay]

Not sure if any guys doing the alpha, are experiencing any reactions from animals. I wouldn't bring something "out there" like this, unless it really got my attention. I usually have my neighbours cat, that will just jump on my lap and go to sleep or snuggle up and ignore everyone else. Whilst I was walking home from the mall, a different neighbours cat started walking beside me and got in front of me and started rubbing its body against my leg. It wouldn't let me pass, I thought I'd stroke it and then I'd be on my way. As I made my way, it kept getting in my way, it wouldn't let me pass. I stroked it a little more whilst making my way. It went inside its house as I passed it.

I noticed when I built my confidence, self-esteem, and everything else over the year, my male dog loves me now. He used to stay away from me, now he always runs to me.

I've got the same experience with my sister's cats, usually they would avoid me like the plague and are pretty asocial when it comes to people other than my sister. But for the last few months especially the male cat is brushing me and following me around. This to the agony of my sister, since she thought she was the only person to get their affection.

[Masterchief]

Cheers guys, nice to hear your animal stories. I thought I was going mad. The next Dr Doolittle

I am a couple of days into Stage 2 now. Everything is normal so far. I don't really have tiredness as much or headaches.

The worst effects I felt so far were the last three days of Stage 1. It was the Friday and I felt like calling in sick. Whilst I was at work, all I had on my mind was that I wanted to set a meeting with my supervisor and manager so I could tell them I am looking to quit. Glad I didn't, as I had a little feeling it was the sub playing its part.

The only difference I am noticing is that, I really need to quit my job and work on my own business, which has great potential to be a success.

I had a sleepless night in stage 1, where I had the realisation that I can't work on my own business and work a 9-5 job at the same time. I was wondering why I couldn't sleep, as I had nothing running on my mind when I usually get a sleepless night. It feels like the sub is not necessarily telling me what to do but gently nudge me into avenues that may be a possibility.

[Masterchief]

Life is rolling along at a steady pace. On Saturday I had coffee with my friend in one of those outside cafes in the town centre. I saw many cute girls go by, and had a lot of neediness came up. Stage 2 is bringing up a little neediness, I was down the whole weekend. I was hating my single life. Having a relationship seems a little pointless at this moment in my life, seeing as I hardly have time for myself sometimes. Then again I know this is a limiting belief.

I am not exactly in alignment with meeting new people. I know one of the recommendations that Shannon wrote about in the alpha male instructions was actually going out and meeting new people duh. I am enjoying my hermit phase with great pleasure, but being single sucks. This is quite a catch 22 situation. I know the WM sub deals with being social, but am not sure about the alpha male. I am certain one of the later stages may be dealing with being more social.

As of midweek now, the neediness has gone now but may come back. I am getting flashes of anger I used to get in stage 1, and feeling quite tired as well.

Apart from that, everything is as normal. Noticing my procrastination is getting a little less, I still seem to be distracted most of the times. I am emphasising the importance of doing things to myself more and how they fit in the bigger picture.

[ronatello]

I had bits of neediness bubble up when I was stage 2. That and mood swings. My mood swings continue but not as intense as before. Stage 2 was subtle for me. Confidence came up a touch during stage 2 and it's more noticeable in stage 3.

I am not exactly in alignment with meeting new people. I know one of the recommendations that Shannon wrote about in the Alpha Male instructions was actually going out and meeting new people duh. I am enjoying my hermit phase with great pleasure, but being single sucks. This is quite a catch 22 situation.

Been there, done that. It was like a tug of war as I like to call it. One side wants to socialize and the other side wants to chillax. It's just resistance and it will pass. I noticed that when I was in the last 2 weeks of stage 2, I suddenly started going to the gym (apartment complex has a gym) almost every day. I've been thinking about it for a while and then it was like, BAM... I started going.

[Masterchief]

Stage 2 is just seeming like a continuation of stage 1, but less noticable. The depression states are still there but milder.

I keep thinking back to my a-levels which I was doing at 18. That was exactly 10 years ago. Normally I have fairly neutral memories of that period of my life, some good some bad. I did fail my a-levels and suffered two romatic rejections. Since Stage 2 though, that period is seeming a little darker.

I have been going on to an old seduction forum, that I used to go on in 2008. It was when I was learning the whole seduction process, to woo a girl I really fancied in the office. That was also not a good period in my life.

Just over half way stage 2 and it is mostly being reminded about the past more. I am not sure if there are any other changes I have noticed in this stage. Still enjoying the hermit phase I am going through, even though I yearn to get out a little more.

[ronatello]

The "hermit" phase for me was strongest in stage 1 and to a slightly lesser extent in stage 2. I'm at the stage where I'm more "restless" and wanting to get out more often. It's not a strong push but stronger than previously. An example of this is the urge to go to the gym to work out. I occasionally get to say hi to a woman when she comes and works out.

[Masterchief]

Ok, stage 2 has finished now and I started stage 3 last night. I noticed less changes in Stage 2 compared to stage 1. Neediness came up big time, but slowly cleared away. Not sure if it gone for good.

I am still concerned about how I want to socialise, but I feel something is holding me back. I would like to find out the reason why, so I may ponder over it for a while. I am busy doing my thing which is learning photography and learning how to build websites, which doesn't leave me enough time in the weekend to go out.

I meet with my friends sometimes in the evening, but that is not the same as going out and meeting new people. You may as well try a change of social, cirlces once in a while.

The second day of Stage 3, is feeling quite brutal. Not sure if the rest of the stage is going to be like this after the more gentle than usual stage 2. I have a feeling of being overwhelmed as I am juggling a lot of things and feel it pointless about starting working for myself instead of being in employment. Even though this is not how I feel deep down, and feel completely different this afternoon compared to last night when I was having these doubting thoughts.

[Masterchief]

Hey guys

Still here. I just kind of branched away from the forums since the beginning of Stage 4. I kinda lost interest for some reason. I am on Stage 6, now.

I experienced the most severe anxiety for about 2 days at the beginning of Stage 4. Must have been during the first 5 days. For the rest of the stage, I was quite pumped, working on business ideas and marketing. I got through three 300 page books, within the last two weeks of Stage 4. I didn't experience nearly as much negativity as most people were talking about. I quite liked Stage 4, I could have easily carried it on for another month.

Stage 5, I don't really know what was happening. The first two days I felt like I had flow, was in the zone. Maybe it was just the excitement from starting a new stage. This stage felt as if nothing really happened, apart from one evening I had a fear of the future/unknown, and whether the business route I want to go down will be one I want to do for the rest of my life.

I am getting a little restless with the alpha male sub at this point and want to move onto more exciting subs.

I have the Luck Magnifier and Ultra Success subs in mind and will prob do them together for two months before the Sex Magnet comes out.

So far Stage 6 feels the same as Stage 5. Don't really feel anything.