06-05-2015, 06:26 PM
Stage 5, Day 24,
Got excellent feedback from a boss, which I didn't expect, but puts a lot into perspective.
I have three bosses, and two of them are gone for a week, so I'm stuck with the one, and she avoided me until she had to.
She eventually told me, after enough time together, that I simply need to calm down (my eagerness to please, and pass my placement), and that this energy has been stressing her out like crazy. The other bosses were saying the same thing. She told me to calm down.
Until she said all of that, I had no idea I was carrying around the extra stress. When she said that, I began to feel and process all of that anxiety. I did an fEFT tapping for the first time during this program, and it has helped. My boss relayed that it was much better today.
It really puts into perspective a whole lot of things; I must have stressed out each of the girls I've had crushes on, putting loads of pressure on them (not for sex or anything specific, but just that feeling of pressure), and giving them negative emotions. The girls I approach seem interested, but then drop off after a few text messages are exchanged.
I think that I'll need some sort of coaching for dating, since I truly don't know the best alternative for how I was behaving.
I want to preserve my workaholic mentality (where I'm eager to learn), but don't want to make others uncomfortable.
Got excellent feedback from a boss, which I didn't expect, but puts a lot into perspective.
I have three bosses, and two of them are gone for a week, so I'm stuck with the one, and she avoided me until she had to.
She eventually told me, after enough time together, that I simply need to calm down (my eagerness to please, and pass my placement), and that this energy has been stressing her out like crazy. The other bosses were saying the same thing. She told me to calm down.
Until she said all of that, I had no idea I was carrying around the extra stress. When she said that, I began to feel and process all of that anxiety. I did an fEFT tapping for the first time during this program, and it has helped. My boss relayed that it was much better today.
It really puts into perspective a whole lot of things; I must have stressed out each of the girls I've had crushes on, putting loads of pressure on them (not for sex or anything specific, but just that feeling of pressure), and giving them negative emotions. The girls I approach seem interested, but then drop off after a few text messages are exchanged.
I think that I'll need some sort of coaching for dating, since I truly don't know the best alternative for how I was behaving.
I want to preserve my workaholic mentality (where I'm eager to learn), but don't want to make others uncomfortable.
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