LTU Journal

[heavysm]

If you are in America, we are programmed to fear police even when we have done nothing, but for good reason because they won't hesitate to kill you even if you have done nothing.

Yeeeep, that's also part of it.

I keep reflecting on all the times a policeman has rolled up next to me in traffic. Technically you're supposed to feel safe and protected, but even when I've done nothing wrong I feel morally afraid that I've done something wrong. I check to make sure I'm doing everything perfectly fine, but it sucks because I sort of do that anyway when the cops aren't around, just in a more passive carefree form. It's all in the reaction to that black and white car. I know my siblings have stuff on their records (arrested for various things) but I'm a blank sheet and I intend to stay that way.

I'll just be glad when I've evolved over this little road bump. It will be nice to finally see a cop on the street or anywhere for that matter and be able to smile without any habit induced fear. I'd likely just shrug the whole thing off