Ok, I intended to only do weekly replies, but I've just had a mini revelation about resistance I've been dealing with.
Last night a police car parked outside my house. He didn't get out or anything, but he was just sitting there for a while doing whatever. That in itself is insignificant; it's just a cop randomly parked after all.
At that time, however, I didn't react neutrally at all. I was panicked and afraid. I had an incredible burst of fear that i would be arrested and that I would have to spend a few days away from home and my business.
The thing is, that's completely irrational. I haven't done anything remotely illegal and it was a deep subconscious belief (fear, more like) of being arrested that literally "arrested" me emotionally with crippling fear.
I didn't think of that has being something i need to release on, but it's coming up now and I definitely need to let that go. Hell, I didn't even consider that a problem but LTU seems to be pulling that up as resistance to be let go and I'm tremendously glad it's happening.
I can't even describe how enlightening it is to know that I'm finally in the process of releasing that crap. I'm generally not a fearful person (I'm pretty neutral about death/dying) but I suppose watching family members actively get arrested while I was younger, and the horrible experiences those times had been, really sank in for me.
Just to be safe I also did a warrant check on myself just to be 1000% this was all irrational. I guess I'm not a criminal after all. It's time to let go.
Last night a police car parked outside my house. He didn't get out or anything, but he was just sitting there for a while doing whatever. That in itself is insignificant; it's just a cop randomly parked after all.
At that time, however, I didn't react neutrally at all. I was panicked and afraid. I had an incredible burst of fear that i would be arrested and that I would have to spend a few days away from home and my business.
The thing is, that's completely irrational. I haven't done anything remotely illegal and it was a deep subconscious belief (fear, more like) of being arrested that literally "arrested" me emotionally with crippling fear.
I didn't think of that has being something i need to release on, but it's coming up now and I definitely need to let that go. Hell, I didn't even consider that a problem but LTU seems to be pulling that up as resistance to be let go and I'm tremendously glad it's happening.
I can't even describe how enlightening it is to know that I'm finally in the process of releasing that crap. I'm generally not a fearful person (I'm pretty neutral about death/dying) but I suppose watching family members actively get arrested while I was younger, and the horrible experiences those times had been, really sank in for me.
Just to be safe I also did a warrant check on myself just to be 1000% this was all irrational. I guess I'm not a criminal after all. It's time to let go.
