05-30-2015, 05:36 PM
@Andarras: I expected inspiration to strike. And it didn't strike the same day. But within 5 days, I finished a song that I was stuck on for about 3 weeks. That's partly due to the fact that I made it a habit to put time aside, and to work on something specific, like Verse 2 of a certain song, instead of just 'write music'. Not sure if it's related.
Stage 5, Day 18
Recently began a new rotation. I'm shared between three preceptors, who are also certified educators in a specific disease, which means that they know their stuff. One of them is super sexy in my eyes; she's has two kids, she's probably 40, and recently separated. It's frustrating to not have a whole lot going on in a small town, then have your eye candy be your boss.
Learning a ton; I impressed my bosses by doing extra work and learning what they tell me is important. I even made Anki flashcards to help the crucial information sink in. The sexy one said that her opinion of me changed when I volunteered to interview clients, instead of watching passively from the side.
The downside is that on top of my guitar practicing, my singing, and songwriting, I'm exhausted. I'll cover in more detail later.
My voice is almost studio ready (though I have no studio to sing in); while home alone, I tried to belt out my full-voice. The first couple of times was that I had a coughing fit, as it tickled a part of my throat that I haven't been using. After about 5 tries, I belted out a line in a way that my 19-year old self could have only dreamed of. It still needs some work on other areas, but it's incredible what consistent action brings you.
Guitar has become frustrating, as I'm, once again, being shown ways where I'm not quite 'there'. But I'm also seeing how I'm closing gaps of my ignorance as long as I keep going.
The downside is that I'm feeling conflicted between positive and negative emotions; during the week, I listen to uplifting stuff. During the weekend, I feel compelled to listen to pessimistic things.
Same with my 'alphaness'; I'm not really feeling it, and I feel it slipping up quite often, as demonstrated by my hesitancies, my voice tone. I realized that I'm trying to not intimidate clients; after that, I decided to stop and I've been doing ok.
I'm feeling run-down; it's 9:30pm, and it feels like 2-3am. I'm probably going to bed soon after this to recharge.
By the way, I found the single most inspiring video I've ever seen in my life. Here it is: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tkKq43xX5c
It's practically flawless; there's a lot I could learn about pacing, story telling, body language.
Stage 5, Day 18
Recently began a new rotation. I'm shared between three preceptors, who are also certified educators in a specific disease, which means that they know their stuff. One of them is super sexy in my eyes; she's has two kids, she's probably 40, and recently separated. It's frustrating to not have a whole lot going on in a small town, then have your eye candy be your boss.
Learning a ton; I impressed my bosses by doing extra work and learning what they tell me is important. I even made Anki flashcards to help the crucial information sink in. The sexy one said that her opinion of me changed when I volunteered to interview clients, instead of watching passively from the side.
The downside is that on top of my guitar practicing, my singing, and songwriting, I'm exhausted. I'll cover in more detail later.
My voice is almost studio ready (though I have no studio to sing in); while home alone, I tried to belt out my full-voice. The first couple of times was that I had a coughing fit, as it tickled a part of my throat that I haven't been using. After about 5 tries, I belted out a line in a way that my 19-year old self could have only dreamed of. It still needs some work on other areas, but it's incredible what consistent action brings you.
Guitar has become frustrating, as I'm, once again, being shown ways where I'm not quite 'there'. But I'm also seeing how I'm closing gaps of my ignorance as long as I keep going.
The downside is that I'm feeling conflicted between positive and negative emotions; during the week, I listen to uplifting stuff. During the weekend, I feel compelled to listen to pessimistic things.
Same with my 'alphaness'; I'm not really feeling it, and I feel it slipping up quite often, as demonstrated by my hesitancies, my voice tone. I realized that I'm trying to not intimidate clients; after that, I decided to stop and I've been doing ok.
I'm feeling run-down; it's 9:30pm, and it feels like 2-3am. I'm probably going to bed soon after this to recharge.
By the way, I found the single most inspiring video I've ever seen in my life. Here it is: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tkKq43xX5c
It's practically flawless; there's a lot I could learn about pacing, story telling, body language.
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