05-17-2015, 01:25 PM
(05-17-2015, 01:00 PM)thor2014 Wrote: Brother when you mentioned SM brought spirituality into your life would you be kind enough to share this profoundness with me ?
Yeah sure. It was/is very strange, but it's like I saw/see sex as a spiritual act entirely. I entirely interact with women on an energetic level. Sure, the physical attracts me, but if a woman is "hot" enough to get a rise out of me, that energy needs to be honored by taking action. The end result of this being sex.
Very hard to describe, but it is all energy.
I'm still battling with social programming, but the energy is there, I cannot ignore it. I may stay away from it by not escalating let's say, but the enrgy is there. lol, I'm repeating myself.
But, I dunno, life became more sacred and calm, and sexual/sensual.
I now identify myself as a hedonist, pleasure being the greatest energy next to love HOWEVER, when one can act WITH love, then it is amplified.
I guess you could say i devote myself to the cultivation and proper channeling/expression of this energy. I haven't, for example, ejaculated in over 2 weeks now. When I was doing SM, I made it to 56 days and would have gone longer but I had a wet dream.
It's like I know instinctively that this energy is to be wielded, and not "blown" if you pardon the pun.
If you have specific questions it'd be easier to answer you tho.
