05-04-2015, 06:39 AM
(05-03-2015, 10:16 AM)LeoistheSun Wrote: Stage 4 is out and Stage 5 is in!!!
For most of this stage I didn't notice anything. I just felt... "meh"
I was still fighting some internal depression, but I have started the sfhelp.org (thanks Sarge for referring me).
Last night I felt had pulled everything together thus-far.
I went out with a friend to a college-ball (prom) that was set on by the GSA (Gay Strait Alliance). As expected, alot and I mean alot of beautiful women- 18-24 age range. Wow, anyway this is what happened:
- Had two beautiful women dance with me. One who came back multiple times. The other danced with me, we got close and started kissing/fondling on the dance-floor. Moved it to a darker area, she let me kiss her all over, bit her neck and suck on her titties while security was watching... (made her Orgasm from it)- Oh and she was grinding on my leg and touching my crotch. Left a damp spot by the way. (Best part: No alcohol was involved on both parties...)- (If I would have acted sooner, no-doubt that wet-spot would have been on my car-seat after I got my fill!
-Free drink at a bar. Asked for a Kamakazi and bartender claimed that he hasn't made one in a long time. So he made a drink for me and himself. It was on the house.
-Throughout the night, didnt care if women were beautiful, I had no approach anxiety (this was also before I met the crazy one above). Was going to dance with another beautiful gal but the music was WAY to loud. My ears hurt. How can people dance to this? The treble was off the charts imo.
-Had a drunk guy, be very close to me telling me that I had some kind of powerful aura and that I would go very far in this world. Was bordering on calling me a "god." TRUTH
-Got respect from all those around me.
Their was one other variable involved aswell.
But first-off Id like to say that I was in my head for most of the time this stage. I did feel awkward when I danced awhile ago- so I looked up some "how to" videos on youtube. That helped a-bit, with dancing confidence.
To me this was a much needed slap-in-the-face. As I was already capable of this before AM6 but I was reserved...
Still need improvement- most of being more aggressive. As I had said above if I had acted sooner- more would have happened. I had thoughts in my head telling me to kiss her earlier and things like that- which I am not used to.
So all in all I feel quite giddy today knowing anything and everything is possible.
Peace
-Leo
Hahahah that's fucking awesome man! Happy for ya! Keep going
