05-03-2015, 04:19 PM
Stage 3 Day 9 - 11 hrs
Was doing amazing up until today. I felt like I was the king of the world. Today I woke up and I didn't feel very hot. Lot's of insecurity. Thoughts that I needed Phero, testosterone supplements, steroids, etc. There is a correlation with drinking alcohol (small amts) and dips in my moods and self esteem. Finding that I can enjoy myself sober, so have to watch this carefully. Internally I find myself thinking more along the lines of I wonder what she's like instead of I wonder if she'll like me. Becoming prouder of my level of fitness. Still looking for my purpose, but not in such a self-berating kind of way. Better and better at work day in and out. I find if my name is attached to something I'll break my back for it. Still not at the point of saving money yet, but that is coming along quite quickly. Have been wanting to keep a cleaner house as well. (I have hated cleaning in the past). My taste in women has been solidified. I was telling one of my friends today that I have challenges being with girls that aren't fit and super perky. Have distilled that to mean my natural preference is for thinner fit girls.
Externally though I have noticed that I find a subject to relate to women as early on as I can. Women eye me everywhere I go. People hold doors, got free stuff, etc. I also have noticed that women will make a strong effort to keep the conversation going. I will also share things with women that I didn't before like I find them interesting and that I'm interested in them. I'm almost completely without a fear of rejection (still a lil bit). My female friends have noticed the vulnerablilty and connection that I've been working towards. No one has said I'm too emotional or anything like that. Just say that I'm actually working to connect with them more.
That's it for now
Was doing amazing up until today. I felt like I was the king of the world. Today I woke up and I didn't feel very hot. Lot's of insecurity. Thoughts that I needed Phero, testosterone supplements, steroids, etc. There is a correlation with drinking alcohol (small amts) and dips in my moods and self esteem. Finding that I can enjoy myself sober, so have to watch this carefully. Internally I find myself thinking more along the lines of I wonder what she's like instead of I wonder if she'll like me. Becoming prouder of my level of fitness. Still looking for my purpose, but not in such a self-berating kind of way. Better and better at work day in and out. I find if my name is attached to something I'll break my back for it. Still not at the point of saving money yet, but that is coming along quite quickly. Have been wanting to keep a cleaner house as well. (I have hated cleaning in the past). My taste in women has been solidified. I was telling one of my friends today that I have challenges being with girls that aren't fit and super perky. Have distilled that to mean my natural preference is for thinner fit girls.
Externally though I have noticed that I find a subject to relate to women as early on as I can. Women eye me everywhere I go. People hold doors, got free stuff, etc. I also have noticed that women will make a strong effort to keep the conversation going. I will also share things with women that I didn't before like I find them interesting and that I'm interested in them. I'm almost completely without a fear of rejection (still a lil bit). My female friends have noticed the vulnerablilty and connection that I've been working towards. No one has said I'm too emotional or anything like that. Just say that I'm actually working to connect with them more.
That's it for now
