Stage two wrap up
I had moderate success in this stage, but the insecurity that developed by the end (last two weeks) was fricking brutal. I was antisocial and insecure almost every day with some really glorious days/ half days sprinkled in there. I worked fairly diligently for existing relationiships and was on tinder right until the end of the stage.... The day I started stage three. I was done on tinder and facebook. Thinking to myself that it was a waste of time and that it's taking me away from real life. I started stage three had sex with a new partner the next day. Secured a date the following day and another for fri.
Points of note:
Felt very emotional throughout this stage.
Pushed to be vulnerable
Talked alot to people in general about my feelings, but in a controlled way. Not a dump my emotions on people way
Started becoming a lot more intuitive
See that I HAVE been falling through on tests women have given me. Basically being too nice.
EVERY weekend I would feel like I was aimless and purposeless in life. Always hunting for my overarching dream or reason for living.
Had one day that I thought for two seconds about suicide because I have no purpose... Told myself I was ridiculous and moved on.
Can't tolerate anyone trying to control me.
Started craving connection with other human beings.
Started to feel higher status
Developing a higher self image
I had moderate success in this stage, but the insecurity that developed by the end (last two weeks) was fricking brutal. I was antisocial and insecure almost every day with some really glorious days/ half days sprinkled in there. I worked fairly diligently for existing relationiships and was on tinder right until the end of the stage.... The day I started stage three. I was done on tinder and facebook. Thinking to myself that it was a waste of time and that it's taking me away from real life. I started stage three had sex with a new partner the next day. Secured a date the following day and another for fri.
Points of note:
Felt very emotional throughout this stage.
Pushed to be vulnerable
Talked alot to people in general about my feelings, but in a controlled way. Not a dump my emotions on people way
Started becoming a lot more intuitive
See that I HAVE been falling through on tests women have given me. Basically being too nice.
EVERY weekend I would feel like I was aimless and purposeless in life. Always hunting for my overarching dream or reason for living.
Had one day that I thought for two seconds about suicide because I have no purpose... Told myself I was ridiculous and moved on.
Can't tolerate anyone trying to control me.
Started craving connection with other human beings.
Started to feel higher status
Developing a higher self image
