04-16-2015, 07:27 PM
Day 24 - 11 hrs/ day
Although I may be decent with women sometimes it just falls down. For those that don't know.. I'm 33, but I am often told that I look 25. So that opens a wider range of ages up for me I guess haha. I do yoga 3 times a week and am pretty disciplined with it. I have taken transit for a couple years and about six months ago I met a girl on the bus... Ran into her again three months ago and, lo and behold she showed up in my yoga studio a month and a half ago. I'm normally very courteous and avoid developing relationships in places I consistently go. But it was not to be. She introduced herself to me three weeks ago. I got her number two weeks ago and we went out on sunday. I purposely go on low risk, something I'm going to do with or without her, dates. We went for dessert hit it off and she told me she just turned 21. I don't care in the slightest, so we continue talking and hanging out. It was windy as all get outta here and we couldn't walk which I think is a great date event. I can walk for a long time and if she whines it tells me something about her. So we drove...
Talked quite a bit and I ended up escalating and kissing her which was pretty electric. Before we kissed though she asked me how old I was I told her and she said OH!... That's old.. I gotta think about this. We parted ways in a good place, but yesterday we hung out again, but the vibe was COMPLETELY different. I asked if we should talk about what she was thinking about the last couple of days she said maybe a little later. Not two mins later she loudly exclaims "Isn't it weird that I'm only 21" I didn't think it was and she tried to change my perspective. It just ended up being not good at all. Basically I went to see if the electricity was still there when we kissed and she had the most disgusted look on her face that it swept my legs out from under me. I actually had to sit down. To go from electric to disgust is a far jump in three days. Especially when I didn't do anything wrong.
Needless to say she wants to be friends because "I'm cool, and super hot". I think that is a crock of I don't have the wherewithall to be straight up with someone. I deleted her messages and number from my phone (usual method for getting rid of someone in my life)
On to the pluses lol. I feel a lot better than I did this morning and think this will be a huge growth point for me or at least the first jump of many. Looking forward to handling rejection better, but I know that slowly I'm getting TONS better than I was. The coworker that I have had for ten months (he's done EPRHA/OED) says that he has really noticed the difference in me since I came there. I find that I am not chasing girls as much, but I believe with a weaker AM base I wouldn't be able to push through with WM. I read that a lot of people look at dropping WM 2-3 stage.. I can see why. Not for the feint of heart, but oh SO worth it if it's 40% what Shannon promised... And isn't it alway. Enjoy yr day folks!
Although I may be decent with women sometimes it just falls down. For those that don't know.. I'm 33, but I am often told that I look 25. So that opens a wider range of ages up for me I guess haha. I do yoga 3 times a week and am pretty disciplined with it. I have taken transit for a couple years and about six months ago I met a girl on the bus... Ran into her again three months ago and, lo and behold she showed up in my yoga studio a month and a half ago. I'm normally very courteous and avoid developing relationships in places I consistently go. But it was not to be. She introduced herself to me three weeks ago. I got her number two weeks ago and we went out on sunday. I purposely go on low risk, something I'm going to do with or without her, dates. We went for dessert hit it off and she told me she just turned 21. I don't care in the slightest, so we continue talking and hanging out. It was windy as all get outta here and we couldn't walk which I think is a great date event. I can walk for a long time and if she whines it tells me something about her. So we drove...
Talked quite a bit and I ended up escalating and kissing her which was pretty electric. Before we kissed though she asked me how old I was I told her and she said OH!... That's old.. I gotta think about this. We parted ways in a good place, but yesterday we hung out again, but the vibe was COMPLETELY different. I asked if we should talk about what she was thinking about the last couple of days she said maybe a little later. Not two mins later she loudly exclaims "Isn't it weird that I'm only 21" I didn't think it was and she tried to change my perspective. It just ended up being not good at all. Basically I went to see if the electricity was still there when we kissed and she had the most disgusted look on her face that it swept my legs out from under me. I actually had to sit down. To go from electric to disgust is a far jump in three days. Especially when I didn't do anything wrong.
Needless to say she wants to be friends because "I'm cool, and super hot". I think that is a crock of I don't have the wherewithall to be straight up with someone. I deleted her messages and number from my phone (usual method for getting rid of someone in my life)
On to the pluses lol. I feel a lot better than I did this morning and think this will be a huge growth point for me or at least the first jump of many. Looking forward to handling rejection better, but I know that slowly I'm getting TONS better than I was. The coworker that I have had for ten months (he's done EPRHA/OED) says that he has really noticed the difference in me since I came there. I find that I am not chasing girls as much, but I believe with a weaker AM base I wouldn't be able to push through with WM. I read that a lot of people look at dropping WM 2-3 stage.. I can see why. Not for the feint of heart, but oh SO worth it if it's 40% what Shannon promised... And isn't it alway. Enjoy yr day folks!
