03-31-2015, 07:27 PM
Stage 3, Day 22,
I'm starting coffee as a habit now, it's helping me at work. I'm definitely improving, but it's hard to notice it in the moment.
I got a pretty hard core hit of reality; no matter what I do, no matter how much money I make, no matter what skills I unlock or accomplishments I attain, I'm going to eventually hit 30, 40, 50, 60, 70 years old.
My youth will go away, and it's not just that I'm going to die (that's something I've come to terms with), but the new component to this realization is that my youth, strength, attractiveness is, at some point, going to go away, and possibly stay that way for a long period of time before I finally die. If I get used to having open and casual relationships with 10/10 women, they may slowly start disappearing. If I have a bunch of energy now, it will go away. Who knows what I want when I'm 50, so the specifics aren't the main cause of worry.
When I think about my life in that way, I now HAVE to get a handle on the crucial elements of my life that have been lacking for all of my life, WHILE I'M YOUNG. The few areas that I feel a need to improve drastically are:
1) Style; I dress OK, and this is the least urgent area for me. But I want to dress well
2) Social circle; I want to connect with people, and make friends quickly
3) Women; I'm in my early 20s; If I don't learn how to connect deeply and have sex with HOT tamale women in this decade, it might become increasingly difficult, though I believe that it's easier in the 30s if you have the right skills. I can't start learning this stuff in my 60s.
4) Money; I need to learn how to create money on my own, independently, and in large quantities
5) Life Purpose; I intend on becoming obnoxiously famous in this lifetime; it's part of the life purpose I've created for myself. This involves building character and a strong identity over top of my current self. It involves mastering my musical abilities and translating the value to other people in large quantities.
YES! A sense of urgency! That helps me focus on the goal, meaning I'll do much more to get it done!
I'm edging towards the next quarter side-projects and checklists. My music side-project involves:
i) Singing and guitar practice
ii) Relearning previously learned songs and learning new songs with pMemory
iii) Learning about my current music pedals and building entire songs with loops and effects. Learn the presets with pMemory
iv) Learning about stage presence
v) Learn enough music theory to improvise
This stage is doing something, but not what I was expecting it to do.
I'm starting coffee as a habit now, it's helping me at work. I'm definitely improving, but it's hard to notice it in the moment.
I got a pretty hard core hit of reality; no matter what I do, no matter how much money I make, no matter what skills I unlock or accomplishments I attain, I'm going to eventually hit 30, 40, 50, 60, 70 years old.
My youth will go away, and it's not just that I'm going to die (that's something I've come to terms with), but the new component to this realization is that my youth, strength, attractiveness is, at some point, going to go away, and possibly stay that way for a long period of time before I finally die. If I get used to having open and casual relationships with 10/10 women, they may slowly start disappearing. If I have a bunch of energy now, it will go away. Who knows what I want when I'm 50, so the specifics aren't the main cause of worry.
When I think about my life in that way, I now HAVE to get a handle on the crucial elements of my life that have been lacking for all of my life, WHILE I'M YOUNG. The few areas that I feel a need to improve drastically are:
1) Style; I dress OK, and this is the least urgent area for me. But I want to dress well
2) Social circle; I want to connect with people, and make friends quickly
3) Women; I'm in my early 20s; If I don't learn how to connect deeply and have sex with HOT tamale women in this decade, it might become increasingly difficult, though I believe that it's easier in the 30s if you have the right skills. I can't start learning this stuff in my 60s.
4) Money; I need to learn how to create money on my own, independently, and in large quantities
5) Life Purpose; I intend on becoming obnoxiously famous in this lifetime; it's part of the life purpose I've created for myself. This involves building character and a strong identity over top of my current self. It involves mastering my musical abilities and translating the value to other people in large quantities.
YES! A sense of urgency! That helps me focus on the goal, meaning I'll do much more to get it done!
I'm edging towards the next quarter side-projects and checklists. My music side-project involves:
i) Singing and guitar practice
ii) Relearning previously learned songs and learning new songs with pMemory
iii) Learning about my current music pedals and building entire songs with loops and effects. Learn the presets with pMemory
iv) Learning about stage presence
v) Learn enough music theory to improvise
This stage is doing something, but not what I was expecting it to do.
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