I'm officially on the 4th week of using the money subs. I've now, today, decided that I'm going to be carrying my Sansa Clip around much more so that I can listen to subs--not just at night. The reason I haven't started carrying it around before is because I'm afraid that it will get stolen, lost or broken. Or nosey people really, really want to know what I'm listening to.
As I've been walking around the last few days, I'm getting kind of the same results that I was getting with the attraction subs! People, especially women, seem to be noticing me more. Some of them look at me in a challenging way, others just want to take a second look and smile at me. It's very interesting. Of course there are places where I get no attention, whatsoever. Like where I am, now, in a computer lab where everyone is doing their big assignments for school. But the attention I get is interesting.
I also seem to be more confident in my dealings with people. And, I don't know if it's a placebo effect, but I notice when something comes up that bothers me, I start thinking "will this be an issue after I've made my millions?" Even though I still worry greatly about my money future, it's like a new belief pops up that tells me I will be rich.
I also notice when people give me challenging looks, I start thinking that this won't matter after I've made my millions. I even feel that I'm going to be getting sexy women as my lovers--even though I still dress like a slob (but that's mostly due to money issues, as well). It's like two birds are being killed by one stone, and I haven't even made a dollar yet.
Of course, people are being nicer to me than ever before in my life. And it still bothers me deeply that I have to move in with my parents, and that I don't have a job lined up outside of temp jobs, for the summer and beyond. But I'm starting to feel better. For the first time in my life, I'm starting to feel like I have some real control of my life.
I'm even feeling that some of the more "out there" and unique stuff that I want to be, do and have in life are somehow accomplish-able. It almost feels like I'm unstoppable when I'm feeling good and not thinking about my life as it is.
So, this is me feeling good, right now. Of course I could start allowing "reality" to get me down and I will start saying the exact opposite of the above. But, as long as I have the subs playing, that tends to be unlikely, I've found out.
One more thing, I've decided that after making my first million, I'm going to find the best company for stereo speakers and ask them to do a custom job that will allow me to use SD cards and flashdrives in the stereo system. I'm also going to buy a house and have Bluetooth speakers placed throughout the entirety of the house, so I can "listen" to the subs everywhere in the house. I don't think I'm going to buy sound equipment over Ebay, anymore. Especially not from China.
Btw, Shannon had mentioned that I seem to be in a "karmic well" in another thread. I've been thinking about that for the past few days. And that is a very apt description. I really do feel like I'm stuck in a well with no way of getting out (normally). And, despite what everyone in my daily life says, they clearly are doing whatever they can to keep me down to their level, or whatever level they want to keep me at. And, of course, it's all my fault for not being further along in life. But, I'm not going to dwell on this, as I feel really good right now. And I feel for once in my life that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
As I've been walking around the last few days, I'm getting kind of the same results that I was getting with the attraction subs! People, especially women, seem to be noticing me more. Some of them look at me in a challenging way, others just want to take a second look and smile at me. It's very interesting. Of course there are places where I get no attention, whatsoever. Like where I am, now, in a computer lab where everyone is doing their big assignments for school. But the attention I get is interesting.
I also seem to be more confident in my dealings with people. And, I don't know if it's a placebo effect, but I notice when something comes up that bothers me, I start thinking "will this be an issue after I've made my millions?" Even though I still worry greatly about my money future, it's like a new belief pops up that tells me I will be rich.
I also notice when people give me challenging looks, I start thinking that this won't matter after I've made my millions. I even feel that I'm going to be getting sexy women as my lovers--even though I still dress like a slob (but that's mostly due to money issues, as well). It's like two birds are being killed by one stone, and I haven't even made a dollar yet.
Of course, people are being nicer to me than ever before in my life. And it still bothers me deeply that I have to move in with my parents, and that I don't have a job lined up outside of temp jobs, for the summer and beyond. But I'm starting to feel better. For the first time in my life, I'm starting to feel like I have some real control of my life.
I'm even feeling that some of the more "out there" and unique stuff that I want to be, do and have in life are somehow accomplish-able. It almost feels like I'm unstoppable when I'm feeling good and not thinking about my life as it is.
So, this is me feeling good, right now. Of course I could start allowing "reality" to get me down and I will start saying the exact opposite of the above. But, as long as I have the subs playing, that tends to be unlikely, I've found out.
One more thing, I've decided that after making my first million, I'm going to find the best company for stereo speakers and ask them to do a custom job that will allow me to use SD cards and flashdrives in the stereo system. I'm also going to buy a house and have Bluetooth speakers placed throughout the entirety of the house, so I can "listen" to the subs everywhere in the house. I don't think I'm going to buy sound equipment over Ebay, anymore. Especially not from China.
Btw, Shannon had mentioned that I seem to be in a "karmic well" in another thread. I've been thinking about that for the past few days. And that is a very apt description. I really do feel like I'm stuck in a well with no way of getting out (normally). And, despite what everyone in my daily life says, they clearly are doing whatever they can to keep me down to their level, or whatever level they want to keep me at. And, of course, it's all my fault for not being further along in life. But, I'm not going to dwell on this, as I feel really good right now. And I feel for once in my life that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
