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[Andrew]

If anyone has been following my blog I apologize for the lack of content and especially follow through.

This would have been appropriate about 3 months out from your last progress. Yeah, uh-oh your trainer is here posting from the grave because this story is a pile of shit.

Things have changed dramatically since my last post and am just learning to live my life and become passionate again. I've felt numb lately emotionally and...

Ryan this is your journal on bodybuilding and in order to make posts about bodybuilding you have to be bodybuilding which you haven't been. Life is always going to be hard for people who have difficult goals. People are here to see results you promised them.

I want to blame other people so badly but I've chosen this. I'll spare you the details.

You haven't been following my instructions since September last year. You've eaten a ton of fast food. Not surprisingly there's little results to show since then. It has been over half a year. Who, other than yourself could you possibly blame?

However things are looking up and I do believe the rest of this year will be a noteable one in terms of learning and becoming smarter in life, in the gym and how I approach my relationships with others and myself. I'm really just getting started when you think about it but I have not forgotten the sense of urgency. I'm 27, planning life changing things for the fall, and by the end of the year might SERIOUSLY consider filming recipe videos. When I talked about it first, I was just excited that I had the idea. First things first though and that is getting back into the kitchen; since I have enough money now and will learn what it takes to become a well rounded creative chef. Along the way I plan to discover a niche that hasn't been tapped into yet.

I thought you were going to spare us the details? Except instead of blaming a person you blamed life. I bet that's convenient. This is all a big excuse because you've been choosing the easy way and you know it. You made yourself a promise when you started to see this through, and I, risking my time and effort to train you believed you.

You made progress while I held your hand and practically forced you to eat the right foods. I'm no longer there so, grow a pair. Pride and ego bruised because you never made gains before I taught you how? Deal with it. You came to me for my help and I got you to the other side. It's what you asked for. You were weak, had two chronic injuries, and I filled my end of the promise. You've come out injury free and stronger than you've ever been. Now finish what you started.

If you want to be a bodybuilder start bodybuilding again.