Seduction Wars- Episode 1 (Women Magnet)(Complete)(Update)

[DarthXedonias]

Stage 4, Day 10

Been a while, so I thought I would update you guys. So far, this stage sucks BAD! I find myself thinking about certain instances in my past and getting angry about them or emotional. I also noticed that my social anxiety just spiked with this stage for some reason. I remember I rose my hand in class last week to elaborate on something the teacher was talking about. I already knew what I was about to say but as soon as I got his attention (along with the classes) my mind just froze up for some reason. I just felt this extreme amount of fear all of a sudden. I was really angry with myself afterwards because after AM6 (also during the early stages of WM) fear was practically non-existent in my life. I really didn't care about what people think or worry about things. It just felt weird to not have felt fear for a couple of months and then all of a sudden it just rages right back. I looked at Jimbobday's journal again to see if their were any similarities and I would say that I feel exactly like he felt while on stage 4. This stage just seems to be bringing up a lot of Anxiety for some reason. That's all the bad things so far anyway.

As for the good stuff, I have finally decided to purchase a new wardrobe. It a mixture between formal and casual. Within the first few days of this stage I finally just gave in and decided to buy it since its been sitting on my online cart for a while. Also, all forms of media entertainment are dead to me pretty much now. The last video game I was playing up to this point was FFXIV. I still play it a little bit now but I'm noticing that sometimes I just log in, walk around for a few mins, and then proceed to log out. I'm just finding it boring now. The only forms of entertainment I seem to enjoy now are Music and reading. I've also noticed that I'm getting that weird occurrence again during this stage of where I think of someone I haven't seen a while and that same person contacts me somehow within the next few days. One other thing to touch upon is the whole "lasting longer in bed issue". I know others have asked about this concerning WM in other areas of the forum so I thought I would shed some light on this. With me it hasn't been like SM where you can last as long as you want until you "decide" to orgasm. In my experience so far its been more of a you orgasm, and you aren't as tired afterwards so you can keep going a few more rounds.

I have finally come to some decisions regarding my future sub use which will be depended on what happens during this run of WM. If stage 5 doesn't deliver on the manifestation part I'm most likely going run EPHRA for the summer, and then Proceed on to the Sexual Lover 5G AYP sub and Financially wealthy lover sub soon afterwards. After the AYP subs I will go on with what I mentioned before with doing LTU for 6 months and then do AM6 again. IF WM does deliver on manifestation then I'm going to do the AYP subs, EPRHA, LTU, and then AM6. So essentially, I will be going 1 of 2 ways:

EPRHA>AYP (Sexual lover 5G/Wealthy Romantic lover)>LTU>AM6
OR
AYP>EPRHA>LTU>AM6

The only thing that will be changing is whether I will be doing EPRHA sooner or later. If I'm not getting manifestation during WM I'm going to assume its because I have some "junk" beliefs left over blocking the manifestation. Hence why I would be running EPRHA sooner in that case. I'm also thinking about doing another AM6 run after the next to further cement the results. I do think though, like I said before, if I go the EPRHA (makes up 5% of LTU)>LTU (Makes up about 34% of AM6)>AM6(Makes up 100% of EPRHA/98% of LTU) I will probably getting permanent results since I'm going to be reinforcing a lot of the precepts from the previous sub in the rotation. Only time will tell though if this rotation will be as good as I think it is.You'll also notice that SM is no where to be seen on this rotation. The reason is that I want to get permanent type B results to the point where I won't even have to run AM6 for quite a while afterwards. Only after that do I then want to change my focus to external manifestations. Its interesting that at the beginning of using subs I was more focus on getting external results (mostly women). Now, I'm honestly more concerned with making myself as strong internally as possible. I guess i could say, to paraphrase Thomas Greene's book, "I have declared unceasing war on myself and against my own weakness".

The only reason I'm doing the AYPs somewhat before my new rotation is because: (1) I wouldn't mind having a "long-term" sexual relationship with 4 "Perfect" lovers while doing this internal development process. (2) This would give me some experience with "poly" type relationships so I know how to handle the relationship dynamics.

*Edit* Oh, and I forgot to mention.Since last Friday I have been using Sleep phones(with Silent track). First night of using them, had 2 dreams that night. So, I'm probably going to be using those for now on since they are more comfortable sleeping in than my turtle beaches.