03-13-2015, 08:30 PM
@Sarge; with my degree, it's required to go through 4-5 placements to graduate. I was on my 3rd of 5. Still going to the 4th, but I have to go back and complete the 3rd one successfully.
And yeah, it may be best to give it time, and then conquer it when I'm better equipped. I do find it suspicious that my colleague gave zero interviews during the last week of this placement and she's gotten the acceptable grading and is passing, whereas I give one, I'm told that I did a great job, and then I get less than satisfactory marks to the point of failing it. I will bring up that point to my clinical professor, because it is very suspect.
Stage 3, Day 4,
It was my last day of this first placement. Spent most of a day getting our documents together and then left. The emotional storm came and went, and a lot of emotional processing went on. I'm beginning to move into anger and my mind is coming up with some objective facts that make my boss seem inconsistent; an inconsistency between her verbal instructions and what she responds positively to. Then, there are areas when she would simply not give any precise, clear instructions, and have the attitude of "Well, you should already know this completely new concept".
Anyways, I could go on, and I'm already getting pissed off just writing about it. I'll get a good night of sleep and call to let my parents know what's going on.
I still let a bunch of time fly by, though today, I did singing, gym, and practice a couple of songs. pMemory has taken a hit because concentrating is difficult.
And yeah, it may be best to give it time, and then conquer it when I'm better equipped. I do find it suspicious that my colleague gave zero interviews during the last week of this placement and she's gotten the acceptable grading and is passing, whereas I give one, I'm told that I did a great job, and then I get less than satisfactory marks to the point of failing it. I will bring up that point to my clinical professor, because it is very suspect.
Stage 3, Day 4,
It was my last day of this first placement. Spent most of a day getting our documents together and then left. The emotional storm came and went, and a lot of emotional processing went on. I'm beginning to move into anger and my mind is coming up with some objective facts that make my boss seem inconsistent; an inconsistency between her verbal instructions and what she responds positively to. Then, there are areas when she would simply not give any precise, clear instructions, and have the attitude of "Well, you should already know this completely new concept".
Anyways, I could go on, and I'm already getting pissed off just writing about it. I'll get a good night of sleep and call to let my parents know what's going on.
I still let a bunch of time fly by, though today, I did singing, gym, and practice a couple of songs. pMemory has taken a hit because concentrating is difficult.
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