Wow this stage is moving fast.
I've been reviewing the sales page for AM6 in an effort to articulate the growth I've experienced in 3.5 stages.
I also read volume 2 of Shannon's journal from start to present because I was interested in his personal development and that of the product(s) I am using and considering.
It must be the different technologies at play because the things I'm going to list feel natural and to a degree, as if they've been present longer than a few months.
I used to dwell hard on the past. Namely the experiences I missed out on due to poor self-image and low self-esteem. This has gone down in intensity and frequency. I'm more focused on what I'm doing today to be a better version of myself tomorrow.
On that note, I'm in the best shape of my life. My weight continues to go down, I'm building a stylish new wardrobe, and people have noticed. Fitness is one of my top priorities because I'm priming myself for cosmetic surgery that will address things I can't through diet and exercise. Physically speaking, I will be a different man in a few months. These things about my body have long detracted from my own perceived masculinity.
With respect to my body, I dare say that I am more comfortable about my appearance than I have ever been in my life. Specifically, this is something that has come to fruition in stage 4. I've spent so long actively denying myself sex for fear of judgement and ridicule about my naked body. It's like a bolder has been lifted. Now I don't yet think of myself as a golden god, but I'm ready to expose myself. I guess that's OGFS at work. I had a lot of shame to work through. It's an ongoing process.
Just as OGFS is woven into every stage of AM6, so should ASC. Is it? If not, there's an idea for AM7.
On this subject and countless others, I've caught my conscious mind destroying old limiting beliefs with positive, empowering self-talk. Self-talk, by the way, is EVERYTHING. We've all heard of affirmations, which are constructive statements intended to replace dysfunctional self-talk through conscious repetition. I view Shannon's subs as affirmations in their most potent form. So much so that subs are like using a needle to inject change into your bloodstream, while reading yourself statements aloud is like splashing it on your arm and hoping a little seeps in. I digress.
I'm still self-conscious about the size of my penis and my lasting power (OPE anyone?) but results from AM are confirming a strong suspicion I had: that my issues with stamina are almost entirely psychological in nature. Why do I say that? Well I've been responding to attractive women with less reverence and more comfort. In fact, I'm noticing them notice me in their silly, subtle ways. Now combine that with my new feelings of sexiness and confidence. Suddenly the pedestal is shrinking. I feel an increase in deservedness and less pressure about having to be equally as attractive physically. I noticed that I masturbate longer. Now my sex drive is low because I'm sick but my hope is that everything I've described will translate into better performance.
My confidence has gone up big time. People—especially strong Alpha types—respond to me differently now. I command respect and I'm less reserved not only about speaking up, but with being direct. This applies equally well to serious discussion and jokes. I'm funnier. I fumble words less. I speak loudly and clearly, and articulate better. I'm more assertive too.
This increase in confidence and its fruits has been one of the biggest ways that AM6 has impacted my life. As I wrote in a recent post, I realized that low confidence is the root of all my problems. And that became crystal clear once I gained confidence. Funny that.
Lastly, I have less social anxiety and I care noticeably less about what other people think—a liberating experience let me tell you.
Again, these are the results from Stages 1-3, and half of Stage 4. Average of 10-12h of exposure per day. It will be interesting to see where I am—who I am—at the end of Stage 6.
So for all of the crap I write about resistance, let it be known that there's a ton of good shit!
The question now is what to do next. ASC is tempting because a focused confidence program could be transformative for me, but WM and SM are screaming my name. WM or SM? That's the question. Needs vs wants. I love that AM includes a tie in to SM, but short of running AM again (which is a possibility), WM would build on things I need more work on. There are some folks in the forum who believe it would be beneficial to develop raw sexuality first (SM) and then temper it with social savvy (WM). However, based on its description and my circumstances, I almost view WM as AM level 2.
Well that's probably the longest post I've written. Thoughts and suggestions are welcome.
I've been reviewing the sales page for AM6 in an effort to articulate the growth I've experienced in 3.5 stages.
I also read volume 2 of Shannon's journal from start to present because I was interested in his personal development and that of the product(s) I am using and considering.
It must be the different technologies at play because the things I'm going to list feel natural and to a degree, as if they've been present longer than a few months.
I used to dwell hard on the past. Namely the experiences I missed out on due to poor self-image and low self-esteem. This has gone down in intensity and frequency. I'm more focused on what I'm doing today to be a better version of myself tomorrow.
On that note, I'm in the best shape of my life. My weight continues to go down, I'm building a stylish new wardrobe, and people have noticed. Fitness is one of my top priorities because I'm priming myself for cosmetic surgery that will address things I can't through diet and exercise. Physically speaking, I will be a different man in a few months. These things about my body have long detracted from my own perceived masculinity.
With respect to my body, I dare say that I am more comfortable about my appearance than I have ever been in my life. Specifically, this is something that has come to fruition in stage 4. I've spent so long actively denying myself sex for fear of judgement and ridicule about my naked body. It's like a bolder has been lifted. Now I don't yet think of myself as a golden god, but I'm ready to expose myself. I guess that's OGFS at work. I had a lot of shame to work through. It's an ongoing process.
Just as OGFS is woven into every stage of AM6, so should ASC. Is it? If not, there's an idea for AM7.
On this subject and countless others, I've caught my conscious mind destroying old limiting beliefs with positive, empowering self-talk. Self-talk, by the way, is EVERYTHING. We've all heard of affirmations, which are constructive statements intended to replace dysfunctional self-talk through conscious repetition. I view Shannon's subs as affirmations in their most potent form. So much so that subs are like using a needle to inject change into your bloodstream, while reading yourself statements aloud is like splashing it on your arm and hoping a little seeps in. I digress.
I'm still self-conscious about the size of my penis and my lasting power (OPE anyone?) but results from AM are confirming a strong suspicion I had: that my issues with stamina are almost entirely psychological in nature. Why do I say that? Well I've been responding to attractive women with less reverence and more comfort. In fact, I'm noticing them notice me in their silly, subtle ways. Now combine that with my new feelings of sexiness and confidence. Suddenly the pedestal is shrinking. I feel an increase in deservedness and less pressure about having to be equally as attractive physically. I noticed that I masturbate longer. Now my sex drive is low because I'm sick but my hope is that everything I've described will translate into better performance.
My confidence has gone up big time. People—especially strong Alpha types—respond to me differently now. I command respect and I'm less reserved not only about speaking up, but with being direct. This applies equally well to serious discussion and jokes. I'm funnier. I fumble words less. I speak loudly and clearly, and articulate better. I'm more assertive too.
This increase in confidence and its fruits has been one of the biggest ways that AM6 has impacted my life. As I wrote in a recent post, I realized that low confidence is the root of all my problems. And that became crystal clear once I gained confidence. Funny that.
Lastly, I have less social anxiety and I care noticeably less about what other people think—a liberating experience let me tell you.
Again, these are the results from Stages 1-3, and half of Stage 4. Average of 10-12h of exposure per day. It will be interesting to see where I am—who I am—at the end of Stage 6.
So for all of the crap I write about resistance, let it be known that there's a ton of good shit!
The question now is what to do next. ASC is tempting because a focused confidence program could be transformative for me, but WM and SM are screaming my name. WM or SM? That's the question. Needs vs wants. I love that AM includes a tie in to SM, but short of running AM again (which is a possibility), WM would build on things I need more work on. There are some folks in the forum who believe it would be beneficial to develop raw sexuality first (SM) and then temper it with social savvy (WM). However, based on its description and my circumstances, I almost view WM as AM level 2.
Well that's probably the longest post I've written. Thoughts and suggestions are welcome.