New VDO:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdUL4c0Z...e=youtu.be
Stage 2, Day 31,
Nothing specific today; I've doubled my dose for singing exercises, and I was very observant today (instead of just doing the exercises to get them over with).
I think I will recap the 2nd stage right now:
- My sex drive fell right off the map. It's just recently returned, and it's always in a positive association with women;
- I'm very consistent in my two side life goals (gym and pMemory); with both of them, I've made great progress, and I'm not even done until April, so there's more to it;
- Related to the last point, I've discovered the benefit of splitting your yearly goals into four quarters, and focusing on only 2 major goals per quarter. So instead of trying to do 12 things in an unfocused way, I will have 8 developed skills under my belt.
- I felt very frequent emotional insecurity, and I would often let out many tears for no reason; I wouldn't call it crying, as it was only tears, and not uncontrollable weeping.
- My level of 'will to commit' has just recently gone up a notch.
- I'm becoming more realistic and grounded about life the reality of living on planet Earth, and less tolerant of people's fantasies or logical justifications towards it.
- I've been craving more women in my life; the thought of having women in my arms is like heroin. Redheads have always been a weakness of mine.
- I've been more appreciative of women, even though I'm attracted to the same amount (few)
- I've realized that my social life is pretty bad, and it'll have to be handled at some point, as it may affect my professional life.
- Been accepting the idea of big changes; trusting myself to do the right thing.
- Body language has improved a bit (1-5%)
- Since the start of 2015, I've only seen one porn video, and only drank alcohol on one occasion. I occasionally look up still images of some boobs to get me through the day (motivate me to work hard).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdUL4c0Z...e=youtu.be
Stage 2, Day 31,
Nothing specific today; I've doubled my dose for singing exercises, and I was very observant today (instead of just doing the exercises to get them over with).
I think I will recap the 2nd stage right now:
- My sex drive fell right off the map. It's just recently returned, and it's always in a positive association with women;
- I'm very consistent in my two side life goals (gym and pMemory); with both of them, I've made great progress, and I'm not even done until April, so there's more to it;
- Related to the last point, I've discovered the benefit of splitting your yearly goals into four quarters, and focusing on only 2 major goals per quarter. So instead of trying to do 12 things in an unfocused way, I will have 8 developed skills under my belt.
- I felt very frequent emotional insecurity, and I would often let out many tears for no reason; I wouldn't call it crying, as it was only tears, and not uncontrollable weeping.
- My level of 'will to commit' has just recently gone up a notch.
- I'm becoming more realistic and grounded about life the reality of living on planet Earth, and less tolerant of people's fantasies or logical justifications towards it.
- I've been craving more women in my life; the thought of having women in my arms is like heroin. Redheads have always been a weakness of mine.
- I've been more appreciative of women, even though I'm attracted to the same amount (few)
- I've realized that my social life is pretty bad, and it'll have to be handled at some point, as it may affect my professional life.
- Been accepting the idea of big changes; trusting myself to do the right thing.
- Body language has improved a bit (1-5%)
- Since the start of 2015, I've only seen one porn video, and only drank alcohol on one occasion. I occasionally look up still images of some boobs to get me through the day (motivate me to work hard).
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