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:: Shannon's SM 2.0 Journal ::
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02-13-2012, 06:49 AM
I just got home from Panera and Wal Mart. I was uploading from Panera, and surrounded by women older than me, who were the ones who couldn't get enough of me during SM 1.0. I am using the prototype of 2.0 that specifies younger women, and got zero attention from any of these women, even though I was there for five hours.
In wal mart, I picked a female cashier who was probably 5 to 10 years younger than me, and observed her as I waited in line. (I chose the busiest part of the busiest day for just this experiment.) She seemed dead. Lifeless, bored, dull.Three people ahead of me got this response. And then I stepped up, and within less than half a minute, she was coming alive, smiling, laughing, literally radiant. I was shocked. And I wasn't really trying to, but I was flirting with her, and this was the result. As I left, I could see in her eyes that she didn't want me to go. I didn't have a whole lot of stuff to buy, so the whole checkout process must have taken three or four minutes, five tops. Wow. SM is working.
I also have been feeling this emotional turmoil lately, and vulnerability, as if something is shifting within me. It's not a resistance anymore, it's just an awareness of my emotional awareness and a sense of vulnerability... but while this vulnerable feeling is not helping me walk over to a woman and start a conversation, when I am doing something that is "normal" and the opportunity presents itself, it just happens. Just flows.
I can tell this is going to get a lot better with time. Looking forward to this.
I just got home from Panera and Wal Mart. I was uploading from Panera, and surrounded by women older than me, who were the ones who couldn't get enough of me during SM 1.0. I am using the prototype of 2.0 that specifies younger women, and got zero attention from any of these women, even though I was there for five hours.
In wal mart, I picked a female cashier who was probably 5 to 10 years younger than me, and observed her as I waited in line. (I chose the busiest part of the busiest day for just this experiment.) She seemed dead. Lifeless, bored, dull.Three people ahead of me got this response. And then I stepped up, and within less than half a minute, she was coming alive, smiling, laughing, literally radiant. I was shocked. And I wasn't really trying to, but I was flirting with her, and this was the result. As I left, I could see in her eyes that she didn't want me to go. I didn't have a whole lot of stuff to buy, so the whole checkout process must have taken three or four minutes, five tops. Wow. SM is working.
I also have been feeling this emotional turmoil lately, and vulnerability, as if something is shifting within me. It's not a resistance anymore, it's just an awareness of my emotional awareness and a sense of vulnerability... but while this vulnerable feeling is not helping me walk over to a woman and start a conversation, when I am doing something that is "normal" and the opportunity presents itself, it just happens. Just flows.
I can tell this is going to get a lot better with time. Looking forward to this.
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02-14-2012, 06:44 AM
SM 2.0 strikes again: out of the blue, I just had a woman send me a picture [EDIT: Make that three pictures of] of her naked sex to my phone. lol That hasn't happened in... hell, I can't even remember. And I never asked for it, or even thought about it... she just... sent it. When I asked if she was offering, she responded, "Yes."
I can see that SM 2.0 is going to be most entertaining.
SM 2.0 strikes again: out of the blue, I just had a woman send me a picture [EDIT: Make that three pictures of] of her naked sex to my phone. lol That hasn't happened in... hell, I can't even remember. And I never asked for it, or even thought about it... she just... sent it. When I asked if she was offering, she responded, "Yes."
I can see that SM 2.0 is going to be most entertaining.
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02-16-2012, 08:00 AM
So I have noticed a few things lately with regards to the Sex Magnet 2.0 program I am using. Primarily that... when I started, there were two women in particular I was interested in sleeping with. Then more started showing up, and it was a bit of imbalance, and now... I am completely uninterested in having sex with those first two, because I am completely turned off by them now due to a combination of immaturity and stupidity, which somehow are now blatantly obvious, where I couldn't see this before, or maybe I just wanted sex more than I cared about that.
Sexual neediness has therefore decreased, I am guessing. My sex drive seems to have stabilized, and no longer is it torture. In fact I no longer notice it at all. I do notice, however, that my normal cycle of desire for release has tripled and remains at that tripled state as my new normal. EDIT: While the program is actually playing, or I am not working. Sometimes, quadrupled or quintupled is more accurate as well.
Emotionally, I am feeling more in control. I'm still finding it hard to balance my mind and my emotional responses, but I'm much better dealing with those women I am dealing with coming from a state of relaxed needlessness, which seems to be increasing steadily and comfortably.
Interestingly, both of these women I am talking about seem to have gone from completely not noticing me at all, during this time, to now being interested enough to repeatedly initiate contact in one case, and in the other, going from always bitchy to me to always smiling and nice to me.
So I have noticed a few things lately with regards to the Sex Magnet 2.0 program I am using. Primarily that... when I started, there were two women in particular I was interested in sleeping with. Then more started showing up, and it was a bit of imbalance, and now... I am completely uninterested in having sex with those first two, because I am completely turned off by them now due to a combination of immaturity and stupidity, which somehow are now blatantly obvious, where I couldn't see this before, or maybe I just wanted sex more than I cared about that.
Sexual neediness has therefore decreased, I am guessing. My sex drive seems to have stabilized, and no longer is it torture. In fact I no longer notice it at all. I do notice, however, that my normal cycle of desire for release has tripled and remains at that tripled state as my new normal. EDIT: While the program is actually playing, or I am not working. Sometimes, quadrupled or quintupled is more accurate as well.
Emotionally, I am feeling more in control. I'm still finding it hard to balance my mind and my emotional responses, but I'm much better dealing with those women I am dealing with coming from a state of relaxed needlessness, which seems to be increasing steadily and comfortably.
Interestingly, both of these women I am talking about seem to have gone from completely not noticing me at all, during this time, to now being interested enough to repeatedly initiate contact in one case, and in the other, going from always bitchy to me to always smiling and nice to me.
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03-07-2012, 02:56 PM
Concerning SM 2.0, yesterday, my ex contacted me to tell me she had met a kind, intelligent, slender natural redhead whom she thought I would like, who was a friend of hers, and whom she thought would also like me... which about made my jaw hit the floor in surprise. I believe that was part of the manifestation effects of SM. So far, no sex because I almost never leave the house. Social anxiety has been up also, and my efforts to combat it have consisted of forcing myself to go out in public, but that requires gas at the very least, and this month, I have some large bills due. Can't spend money even on gas unnecessarily. This has killed my ability to socialize almost completely, since most of my friends are not within walking distance, nor are any of the places I could go to spend time without spending money.
I did have the realization today that I have been sabotaging myself concerning having a relationship of a romantic or sexual nature since I left my last major relationship. I think it hurt me so deeply that I have been subconsciously trying to prevent it from happening again by avoiding the circumstances that would allow for such to happen. This has been clashing with SM hardcore and has been driving me crazy... now that I understand what's going on, though, it should not be difficult to deal with this and make some progress at least towards socializing more and perhaps opening up my opportunities for sex. Hiding behind work all the time isn't getting me anywhere.
Sadly, I have a legitimate claim to needing to work all the time, as you guys have piled my work so high around me that I wonder sometimes if I will ever get through it all. Wink
It is time for me to open up and allow myself a relationship or two of some sort again. Of course this will not be easy for a while... but at least I have a prospect or two now. It ought to be interesting to meet this girl my ex is trying to set me up with. Worth a chuckle, at the very least. I get the impression there will be more to it than that, though.
Concerning SM 2.0, yesterday, my ex contacted me to tell me she had met a kind, intelligent, slender natural redhead whom she thought I would like, who was a friend of hers, and whom she thought would also like me... which about made my jaw hit the floor in surprise. I believe that was part of the manifestation effects of SM. So far, no sex because I almost never leave the house. Social anxiety has been up also, and my efforts to combat it have consisted of forcing myself to go out in public, but that requires gas at the very least, and this month, I have some large bills due. Can't spend money even on gas unnecessarily. This has killed my ability to socialize almost completely, since most of my friends are not within walking distance, nor are any of the places I could go to spend time without spending money.
I did have the realization today that I have been sabotaging myself concerning having a relationship of a romantic or sexual nature since I left my last major relationship. I think it hurt me so deeply that I have been subconsciously trying to prevent it from happening again by avoiding the circumstances that would allow for such to happen. This has been clashing with SM hardcore and has been driving me crazy... now that I understand what's going on, though, it should not be difficult to deal with this and make some progress at least towards socializing more and perhaps opening up my opportunities for sex. Hiding behind work all the time isn't getting me anywhere.
Sadly, I have a legitimate claim to needing to work all the time, as you guys have piled my work so high around me that I wonder sometimes if I will ever get through it all. Wink
It is time for me to open up and allow myself a relationship or two of some sort again. Of course this will not be easy for a while... but at least I have a prospect or two now. It ought to be interesting to meet this girl my ex is trying to set me up with. Worth a chuckle, at the very least. I get the impression there will be more to it than that, though.
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03-17-2012, 05:55 AM
The last few days I spent at a friend's house trying to socialize and decompress. It of course resulted in this cold I have, but it also allowed me to see the effects SM 2.0 is having on me. I found myself much more blatantly aware of the reactions I was getting from the women around me, for one thing. Even indicators of interest that I wasn't "supposed" to notice, and IOIs the woman herself wasn't always aware of giving me.
I get a lot of them now. And I seem to get special treatment by women, too. The barista at Dunkin Donuts, for instance, went out of her way to make me happy, even coming over to my table to "check on me" as if it were some sort of restaurant where that is the norm. I caught her looking at me during her lunch break, and I could see in her countenance that she wished I would open her. I could tell by her responses that all I had to do was tell her we were going to the movies that night - not ask, mind you, tell - and I'd have ended up in bed with her at the end, if I wanted to. I probably could have skipped the movie, come to think of it. But I had a friend's son with me, and that took priority.
SM is making this much easier - when I get out. It also has made me much more decidedly sexual and put me in hunter mode. One day soon, I am going to have to go hunting. Alone. No friends, no kids, no distractions. Just... hunting.
The last few days I spent at a friend's house trying to socialize and decompress. It of course resulted in this cold I have, but it also allowed me to see the effects SM 2.0 is having on me. I found myself much more blatantly aware of the reactions I was getting from the women around me, for one thing. Even indicators of interest that I wasn't "supposed" to notice, and IOIs the woman herself wasn't always aware of giving me.
I get a lot of them now. And I seem to get special treatment by women, too. The barista at Dunkin Donuts, for instance, went out of her way to make me happy, even coming over to my table to "check on me" as if it were some sort of restaurant where that is the norm. I caught her looking at me during her lunch break, and I could see in her countenance that she wished I would open her. I could tell by her responses that all I had to do was tell her we were going to the movies that night - not ask, mind you, tell - and I'd have ended up in bed with her at the end, if I wanted to. I probably could have skipped the movie, come to think of it. But I had a friend's son with me, and that took priority.
SM is making this much easier - when I get out. It also has made me much more decidedly sexual and put me in hunter mode. One day soon, I am going to have to go hunting. Alone. No friends, no kids, no distractions. Just... hunting.
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03-19-2012, 09:32 AM
Now that I'm home again, I am really thinking about how today went, and I am surprised at how much change there really has been from SM 2.0. I'm radiating a very sexual presence, which at least two women noticed and responded to today while I was out. One, unfortunately, was a couple hours from home, driving home, and of course had her 2 and 3 year old kids with her when she stopped in to see me (in a public location). I got the impression that if she'd had half a chance, we might have been going in a decidedly sexual direction.
The other was a woman who happened to be working where I ended up, and she responded to me VERY positively also, beaming smile, hovering around me, etc. Unfortunately, again not circumstances in which I could do much of anything.
But I feel a lot different! I feel very much "on the prowl", and very much the hunter. The first one was encouraging me to contact me and see her when I am in her area, and said next time I am down there, "you call me and visit or you die."
I just need to socialize more to see the results this program is having. When I do, it's like some slumbering dragon within awakens and begins to act.
Now that I'm home again, I am really thinking about how today went, and I am surprised at how much change there really has been from SM 2.0. I'm radiating a very sexual presence, which at least two women noticed and responded to today while I was out. One, unfortunately, was a couple hours from home, driving home, and of course had her 2 and 3 year old kids with her when she stopped in to see me (in a public location). I got the impression that if she'd had half a chance, we might have been going in a decidedly sexual direction.
The other was a woman who happened to be working where I ended up, and she responded to me VERY positively also, beaming smile, hovering around me, etc. Unfortunately, again not circumstances in which I could do much of anything.
But I feel a lot different! I feel very much "on the prowl", and very much the hunter. The first one was encouraging me to contact me and see her when I am in her area, and said next time I am down there, "you call me and visit or you die."
I just need to socialize more to see the results this program is having. When I do, it's like some slumbering dragon within awakens and begins to act.
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03-22-2012, 07:39 AM
Today was awesome. I could have ended up having some amazing sex very easily, if I chose to, but the nice thing about SM is that it supports a man's wisdom and self control in situations where they are required. And boy were they required today. It's not very often I come across a woman I so naturally respond to, and it required some self control to keep me from doing something with her. Which was the wise choice... not necessarily the one my body was rooting for.
Which is frustrating, because as far as I know this is the only woman I respond that way to so naturally, and she is single... and even wants me... but the wiser choice is still not to seduce her right now, and I was able to master myself and the situation without much difficulty. The way I walk, carry myself, speak and act is also different when I am around attractive women, and it has an effect I can see. I am getting responses that say I am perceived as a very high value man. Loving what SM 2.0 is doing... just need to socialize more.
And when I am finished with this, I'm going to pounce on AM 5.0. I think that's going to knock it even further out of the park that SM 2.0 will. Presuming no EOL type catastrophes during 2012, I'm thinking this is going to be a good year.
Today was awesome. I could have ended up having some amazing sex very easily, if I chose to, but the nice thing about SM is that it supports a man's wisdom and self control in situations where they are required. And boy were they required today. It's not very often I come across a woman I so naturally respond to, and it required some self control to keep me from doing something with her. Which was the wise choice... not necessarily the one my body was rooting for.
Which is frustrating, because as far as I know this is the only woman I respond that way to so naturally, and she is single... and even wants me... but the wiser choice is still not to seduce her right now, and I was able to master myself and the situation without much difficulty. The way I walk, carry myself, speak and act is also different when I am around attractive women, and it has an effect I can see. I am getting responses that say I am perceived as a very high value man. Loving what SM 2.0 is doing... just need to socialize more.
And when I am finished with this, I'm going to pounce on AM 5.0. I think that's going to knock it even further out of the park that SM 2.0 will. Presuming no EOL type catastrophes during 2012, I'm thinking this is going to be a good year.
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03-23-2012, 02:00 PM
I am REALLY enjoying SM 2.0's effects on me. Confidence, alpha-masculine power projection, charisma, owning my space, commanding voice, body language, and I am getting noticed by, and specifically sexual interest from, women.
I have a couple friends who are sisters. I dated the older one until she turned into a control freak on me, and the younger one has been flirting with me ever since we met. I went to see them and their family today, and it was very apparent that they were both interested and pursuing. They were both trying to get my attention, both expressing interest and both giving CFM signals. Which amuses me, since the one who I dated is now married and has a kid with her husband... who is a friend of mine. But they were doing a very amusing show of simultaneously trying to express interest to me, get my attention, and not let the other know, while trying hard to cut each other down to size. It was really funny to watch, because they thought they were being too subtle for me to notice it.
I didn't end up doing anything with either of them, but the married one invited me back tomorrow, and the unmarried one suggested that we should have sex tomorrow night when she got me alone. Unfortunately, family obligations prevent me from being able to go back tomorrow... which is par for the course, since the unmarried sister and I have been flirting and slowly building sexual tension for about 5 years now, and some sort of circumstance always manages to stop anything sexual from happening.
Part of what SM has done to me is made me very aware that I am the man, and the prize, and women are starting to act in accordance with this. It's not so much a conscious belief, but an automated one that comes out in my attitude, actions, speech and body language and very clearly says I am a high value man and a good catch. It makes me feel like I am on top of the world when I am around women.
Another part of what it's done is make me the hunter. I used to flirt with her and nothing would happen because I wasn't being aggressive enough. Now I am picking subjects and steering things so that I catch them. This game of cat and mouse she and I have been playing for years now is going to end because of this, and soon, I can tell. I have decided that I am going to have her, and that's that. I can feel and somehow just know that it's going to happen. I am starting to feel like (and genuinely believe) that I can have sex with any woman I want, and it's only a question of when.
My response to women I find attractive is very different now. Once I have them in my sights, it's like a lion stalking prey. The fact that I will get them is now an absolutely foregone conclusion. The question now is, how long should I spend enjoying the hunt?
Truly amazed and pleased to see this result and response. It feels awesome. Definitely need to socialize more.
I'm most of the way through Stage 3.
I am REALLY enjoying SM 2.0's effects on me. Confidence, alpha-masculine power projection, charisma, owning my space, commanding voice, body language, and I am getting noticed by, and specifically sexual interest from, women.
I have a couple friends who are sisters. I dated the older one until she turned into a control freak on me, and the younger one has been flirting with me ever since we met. I went to see them and their family today, and it was very apparent that they were both interested and pursuing. They were both trying to get my attention, both expressing interest and both giving CFM signals. Which amuses me, since the one who I dated is now married and has a kid with her husband... who is a friend of mine. But they were doing a very amusing show of simultaneously trying to express interest to me, get my attention, and not let the other know, while trying hard to cut each other down to size. It was really funny to watch, because they thought they were being too subtle for me to notice it.
I didn't end up doing anything with either of them, but the married one invited me back tomorrow, and the unmarried one suggested that we should have sex tomorrow night when she got me alone. Unfortunately, family obligations prevent me from being able to go back tomorrow... which is par for the course, since the unmarried sister and I have been flirting and slowly building sexual tension for about 5 years now, and some sort of circumstance always manages to stop anything sexual from happening.
Part of what SM has done to me is made me very aware that I am the man, and the prize, and women are starting to act in accordance with this. It's not so much a conscious belief, but an automated one that comes out in my attitude, actions, speech and body language and very clearly says I am a high value man and a good catch. It makes me feel like I am on top of the world when I am around women.
Another part of what it's done is make me the hunter. I used to flirt with her and nothing would happen because I wasn't being aggressive enough. Now I am picking subjects and steering things so that I catch them. This game of cat and mouse she and I have been playing for years now is going to end because of this, and soon, I can tell. I have decided that I am going to have her, and that's that. I can feel and somehow just know that it's going to happen. I am starting to feel like (and genuinely believe) that I can have sex with any woman I want, and it's only a question of when.
My response to women I find attractive is very different now. Once I have them in my sights, it's like a lion stalking prey. The fact that I will get them is now an absolutely foregone conclusion. The question now is, how long should I spend enjoying the hunt?
Truly amazed and pleased to see this result and response. It feels awesome. Definitely need to socialize more.
I'm most of the way through Stage 3.
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03-24-2012, 12:18 PM
I am amazed at what it's doing to me, what I am doing, and how natural this is now... tonight I got my waitresses phone number, and I didn't even ask for it. I simply told her if she wanted to know more, I had to have a way to contact her. Curiosity is deadly for getting them to give you their phone number. I could tell by reading her attitude and body language that she's taken and has no intentions of doing anything with me, but I also know how to seduce her anyway... if I wanted to. It's not my style to go after taken women, though.
I think you're going to absolutely love this program.
I am amazed at what it's doing to me, what I am doing, and how natural this is now... tonight I got my waitresses phone number, and I didn't even ask for it. I simply told her if she wanted to know more, I had to have a way to contact her. Curiosity is deadly for getting them to give you their phone number. I could tell by reading her attitude and body language that she's taken and has no intentions of doing anything with me, but I also know how to seduce her anyway... if I wanted to. It's not my style to go after taken women, though.
I think you're going to absolutely love this program.
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03-28-2012, 06:11 AM
Here's another example of what SM 2.0 does for you. I just had a girl I know offer me the chance to be her booty call. But not just her booty call, her second chance booty call, if the first one wasn't available.
I just laughed. Then I told her I'm nobody's booty call, never mind second choice for a booty call. Friends with benefits is one thing, but this isn't me jumping to drive over and give you sex whenever you want it. Friends with benefits is a two way street, and I can do without just fine.
As time goes on, I am becoming more and more unimpressed with the women around here.
Here's another example of what SM 2.0 does for you. I just had a girl I know offer me the chance to be her booty call. But not just her booty call, her second chance booty call, if the first one wasn't available.
I just laughed. Then I told her I'm nobody's booty call, never mind second choice for a booty call. Friends with benefits is one thing, but this isn't me jumping to drive over and give you sex whenever you want it. Friends with benefits is a two way street, and I can do without just fine.
As time goes on, I am becoming more and more unimpressed with the women around here.
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04-07-2012, 04:43 PM
I am finding myself much more responding to the women around me who are attractive with the natural, automatic and comfortable desire to tell them exactly what I think of them. Tonight in wal mart, I saw a woman who had, shall we say, a very nice waggle, and a very nice "waggler". I was just about to say to her exactly that, but it seemed that would have been too forward for the circumstances, although I am quite sure I'd have actually done it in slightly different circumstances. Basically, I didn't care to come off as a stalker creep by doing what it would have taken to get myself from where I was, to where she was, in an otherwise empty store. Had she been passing my, or close enough that I could have commented without seeming to chase her down, I doubt it would have had any filtration before coming out of my mouth.
And I love this, because it's so comfortable and natural for me to think and say such pointedly sexual things to women now, and in ways that are actually received positively, too. It's like my whole being radiates this sexual confidence and presence, and my sexual flirtations are just flowing from that in a way that is completely normal, natural, and comfortable for me and them. It's direct and unmistakeably sexual, and yet when I do it, I never get an unhappy response. It's always positive, even if they can't act on it for some reason.
I can't wait until I find myself dealing with a woman who isn't involved. This program is turning me into Don Juan, and it feels awesome to be so naturally flowing into my sexuality and it's expression.
I am finding myself much more responding to the women around me who are attractive with the natural, automatic and comfortable desire to tell them exactly what I think of them. Tonight in wal mart, I saw a woman who had, shall we say, a very nice waggle, and a very nice "waggler". I was just about to say to her exactly that, but it seemed that would have been too forward for the circumstances, although I am quite sure I'd have actually done it in slightly different circumstances. Basically, I didn't care to come off as a stalker creep by doing what it would have taken to get myself from where I was, to where she was, in an otherwise empty store. Had she been passing my, or close enough that I could have commented without seeming to chase her down, I doubt it would have had any filtration before coming out of my mouth.
And I love this, because it's so comfortable and natural for me to think and say such pointedly sexual things to women now, and in ways that are actually received positively, too. It's like my whole being radiates this sexual confidence and presence, and my sexual flirtations are just flowing from that in a way that is completely normal, natural, and comfortable for me and them. It's direct and unmistakeably sexual, and yet when I do it, I never get an unhappy response. It's always positive, even if they can't act on it for some reason.
I can't wait until I find myself dealing with a woman who isn't involved. This program is turning me into Don Juan, and it feels awesome to be so naturally flowing into my sexuality and it's expression.
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04-11-2012, 03:44 AM
Last night I went out for trivia at a local bar and had a wonderful time. It was easy. I was very comfortable with myself and socializing with the people around me. I felt at home, and ended up meeting almost everyone else sitting at the bar. Tied for 4th place on trivia, which only happened because I "created" a team while the game was on, and the process distracted me as much as it helped... and I had the help of a friend who was giving me hints. But I was there to chill out and have fun, and I had a blast. Socializing is much easier now. SM is having some really awesome effects on me, and if I were a customer, I'd be thrilled with it. I'm thrilled with it regardless.
Last night I went out for trivia at a local bar and had a wonderful time. It was easy. I was very comfortable with myself and socializing with the people around me. I felt at home, and ended up meeting almost everyone else sitting at the bar. Tied for 4th place on trivia, which only happened because I "created" a team while the game was on, and the process distracted me as much as it helped... and I had the help of a friend who was giving me hints. But I was there to chill out and have fun, and I had a blast. Socializing is much easier now. SM is having some really awesome effects on me, and if I were a customer, I'd be thrilled with it. I'm thrilled with it regardless.
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04-13-2012, 07:21 AM
Yesterday, I did something I have never done before in my life. I decided it was time for me to have my own "style" and I started thinking about what that would be. I decided that I like the layered look, non-worn-out jeans that fit with an T-shirt and an open button down collared shirt. So today, I went shopping for the first footsteps towards my new style.
Neither of these two things have ever really crossed my mind before... I have so many clothes that were given to me as gifts over the years that I will literally have to get rid of several garbage bags worth of clothes to clear out my closet. Why buy new, when you have a hundred of everything already?
But what I have noticed is that now, just being dressed isn't enough. Now I want to have a style that is my own. Before, I just didn't care. As long as I was dressed and wasn't going to get arrested, and I wasn't embarrassed of how I looked... who cared.
Sex Magnet is having some interesting effects on me.
So I have concluded that this new style isn't going to be very flashy. I just want it to be a casual mix of chill, playful, adventurous and relaxed. Which is pretty much what I ended up with. It looks good on me, and it's not "Hey, look at me, I'm desperate for attention!" I like it.
Today while returning a pair of new jeans I bought in the wrong size (how didat happen?), I was confronted by a petite blonde vision of loveliness behind the returns desk. The first thing that came to my mind to say to her was, "Wow, I bet you're a great kisser," and I almost said it. But, given the circumstances, it did not seem appropriate, and her body language told me she was both attracted and uncomfortable about being attracted at the same time, so I let it slide.
Then I went to a pet store, since I needed some flea killer. Just gave the dogs a flea bath and there's now an invasion of the damned things under my desk somehow. My dogs aren't even allowed in my office. Go figure. Anyway, get to the checkout counter and lo and behold, another blonde vision of loveliness, although not quite as attractive as the first. I used to just swipe, enter in my pin and go. This time, I was talking to her, and making jokes. "Fleas are expensive pets to keep," I said after hearing $35 for flea killer. She laughed, made a comment, and I said, "You know, you guys should sell fleas as pets here. I bet they'd be a hit." Deadpan face. She didn't know if I was joking or not, and started stammering something about "Fleas, uh, flea come naturally, and that would be just wrong..." then I burst out laughing, and she realized I had been kidding, and proceeded to playfully hit me with the bag. If she hadn't been too young, I'd have asked her to come with me to the comedy club this Saturday. Ah well. SM is definitely making an impact, and it's definitely a positive one.
Yesterday, I did something I have never done before in my life. I decided it was time for me to have my own "style" and I started thinking about what that would be. I decided that I like the layered look, non-worn-out jeans that fit with an T-shirt and an open button down collared shirt. So today, I went shopping for the first footsteps towards my new style.
Neither of these two things have ever really crossed my mind before... I have so many clothes that were given to me as gifts over the years that I will literally have to get rid of several garbage bags worth of clothes to clear out my closet. Why buy new, when you have a hundred of everything already?
But what I have noticed is that now, just being dressed isn't enough. Now I want to have a style that is my own. Before, I just didn't care. As long as I was dressed and wasn't going to get arrested, and I wasn't embarrassed of how I looked... who cared.
Sex Magnet is having some interesting effects on me.
So I have concluded that this new style isn't going to be very flashy. I just want it to be a casual mix of chill, playful, adventurous and relaxed. Which is pretty much what I ended up with. It looks good on me, and it's not "Hey, look at me, I'm desperate for attention!" I like it.
Today while returning a pair of new jeans I bought in the wrong size (how didat happen?), I was confronted by a petite blonde vision of loveliness behind the returns desk. The first thing that came to my mind to say to her was, "Wow, I bet you're a great kisser," and I almost said it. But, given the circumstances, it did not seem appropriate, and her body language told me she was both attracted and uncomfortable about being attracted at the same time, so I let it slide.
Then I went to a pet store, since I needed some flea killer. Just gave the dogs a flea bath and there's now an invasion of the damned things under my desk somehow. My dogs aren't even allowed in my office. Go figure. Anyway, get to the checkout counter and lo and behold, another blonde vision of loveliness, although not quite as attractive as the first. I used to just swipe, enter in my pin and go. This time, I was talking to her, and making jokes. "Fleas are expensive pets to keep," I said after hearing $35 for flea killer. She laughed, made a comment, and I said, "You know, you guys should sell fleas as pets here. I bet they'd be a hit." Deadpan face. She didn't know if I was joking or not, and started stammering something about "Fleas, uh, flea come naturally, and that would be just wrong..." then I burst out laughing, and she realized I had been kidding, and proceeded to playfully hit me with the bag. If she hadn't been too young, I'd have asked her to come with me to the comedy club this Saturday. Ah well. SM is definitely making an impact, and it's definitely a positive one.
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04-16-2012, 03:11 PM
So I went out last night to a live comedy show, and I went alone. Even though I bought two tickets, I somehow never found the right time to find a date. Part of that was finding out that one option would have required 12 hours of driving to go on said date... two turned out to be too young... and one burned me out on her negativity the day before. So I showed up alone, and had a blast. I had a whole row to myself, somehow.
The women around me, all in front of me, were noticing me. Big time. All there with husbands, and all turning almost 180 degrees to look at me repeatedly. One kept getting up from several rows away to walk past me and stare. Unfortunately, none were single, and most were much older than me. But I had fun, and I really didn't care at all whether or not I had a date or got any interest from women. Which seems to have only interested them all that much more.
SM 2.0 is making amazing things happen inside me. This would have been impossible just 6 months ago.
So I went out last night to a live comedy show, and I went alone. Even though I bought two tickets, I somehow never found the right time to find a date. Part of that was finding out that one option would have required 12 hours of driving to go on said date... two turned out to be too young... and one burned me out on her negativity the day before. So I showed up alone, and had a blast. I had a whole row to myself, somehow.
The women around me, all in front of me, were noticing me. Big time. All there with husbands, and all turning almost 180 degrees to look at me repeatedly. One kept getting up from several rows away to walk past me and stare. Unfortunately, none were single, and most were much older than me. But I had fun, and I really didn't care at all whether or not I had a date or got any interest from women. Which seems to have only interested them all that much more.
SM 2.0 is making amazing things happen inside me. This would have been impossible just 6 months ago.
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04-17-2012, 05:04 PM
Speaking of SM and sexy ladies... I just realized something that I should report, while reading your post.
Within the last week, a friend of mine has decided she is going to start looking for compatible females for me to date and/or have sex with. She's never done this before... but now she's started doing this, although so far nothing has had a chance to happen.
It occurs to me that this must be the result of having been doing SM 2.0!
Speaking of SM and sexy ladies... I just realized something that I should report, while reading your post.
Within the last week, a friend of mine has decided she is going to start looking for compatible females for me to date and/or have sex with. She's never done this before... but now she's started doing this, although so far nothing has had a chance to happen.
It occurs to me that this must be the result of having been doing SM 2.0!
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04-20-2012, 01:10 PM
So I went out tonight and did trivia again, this time on the next town over. I had a very good time, met a number of people, and had the cutest bartendress on my team. She was usually busy when the questions were called, but she did help when she could. My team placed third, and that means we won a gift certificate. If I hadn't been two and a half sheets to the wind, I'd have made some better choices and we'd probably have finished second... but my lovely attendant was trying to be a good bartender and brought me beers I didn't tell her I wanted yet. And of course you can't just waste a perfectly good beer, right? lol Especially when it's Guinness! And so I had one too many for strategizing effectively. But I did have a great time, and I also had zero social anxiety tonight, which was amazing to me, but a very pleasant experience. I think I may actually be over it.
I wasn't really much for flirting tonight though. I had fun, but I feel like I'm burning out lately, and I have not been in a flirtatious mood. I certainly would not mind getting to know my bartendress better, but she had zero interest and I had zero desire to change her mind.
I bring this up because this is what SM 2.0 has done to me. The social anxiety is gone. My lack of interest in flirting has to do with feeling somewhat hopeless in certain directions right now, and dealing with a woman I knew the signs for being a very, VERY slow come-around. If I pursue, it'll take months to get her. Maybe a year. Great for a faithful catch... but very slow to catch.
So I went out tonight and did trivia again, this time on the next town over. I had a very good time, met a number of people, and had the cutest bartendress on my team. She was usually busy when the questions were called, but she did help when she could. My team placed third, and that means we won a gift certificate. If I hadn't been two and a half sheets to the wind, I'd have made some better choices and we'd probably have finished second... but my lovely attendant was trying to be a good bartender and brought me beers I didn't tell her I wanted yet. And of course you can't just waste a perfectly good beer, right? lol Especially when it's Guinness! And so I had one too many for strategizing effectively. But I did have a great time, and I also had zero social anxiety tonight, which was amazing to me, but a very pleasant experience. I think I may actually be over it.
I wasn't really much for flirting tonight though. I had fun, but I feel like I'm burning out lately, and I have not been in a flirtatious mood. I certainly would not mind getting to know my bartendress better, but she had zero interest and I had zero desire to change her mind.
I bring this up because this is what SM 2.0 has done to me. The social anxiety is gone. My lack of interest in flirting has to do with feeling somewhat hopeless in certain directions right now, and dealing with a woman I knew the signs for being a very, VERY slow come-around. If I pursue, it'll take months to get her. Maybe a year. Great for a faithful catch... but very slow to catch.
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04-23-2012, 09:14 AM
I was invited to a party last night by a female friend of mine, and I had no trouble going. I jumped on it, and went. Before SM, that would have been much more difficult for me. There would have been a general sense of desire to go, overwhelmed by an indistinct sense of dread, and when I ended up having to find a different outfit to go in than what I had planned (it was too wrinkled), and it made me late, I would have just become overwhelmed by the social anxiety and stayed home.
But last night, I went anyway, and the social anxiety was a very faint thing. As it turns out, I got there first, which I prefer to do when I don't know everyone present already. But this time, that didn't matter to me. And I met three attractive women, who I managed to get a chance to talk to one on one because I was doing eyeball chart readings and they were having a wonderful time hearing about themselves. It also gave me everything I needed and wanted to know about them in order to communicate with and seduce them, except who had kids and who was taken. I didn't go after any of them, instead opting to observe and enjoy the company of them on a more friendly level, simply because I didn't want to make a faux pas as a result of not knowing who is dating whom in this group. It paid off, as I would have wrecked myself big time if I had moved on the ones I liked.
My style is to act now if there's an obvious mutual connection, or move like moss if I see someone I am interested in and there's not. I will get to know her, let her get to know me, and then slowly figure out how to make her interested, and do it. Slow and steady wins the race, and it always works, as long as I am patient enough and I have pegged the right path to take.
One of the women there last night surprised me by going after someone else, when I was sure she'd go after me, but I didn't let it bother me at all. I just laughed at her later when she told me that he tried to force sex and she had to push him off. She doesn't think of me that way, yet, but I know that sooner or later the conspicuous lack of intimidation I show to her will pique her interest and she'll come after me. She, and the other women present, are all very strong and intelligent women, and all are used to intimidating men if the allow themselves to express themselves fully. I am not in the slightest intimidated by a strong, or an intelligent woman. In fact, those traits attract me.
But timing is everything, and the time is not quite right yet. So I will wait and when it is, I will go after and get the one I want. If I haven't changed my mind by then about who I want.
The blending of AM and SM is coming to a sort of maturity now, I can see, looking back, and the results are very nice. I was the only guy there last night who wasn't trying to get in someone's pants (except my friend's fiance), and I must say it was amusing watching them try. They were not exactly terribly good at what they were trying to do. So instead of trying to get into her pants, I went over and flirted with her playfully, and made her feel better and safer.
Definitely a huge change since I started SM. It is awesome.
I was invited to a party last night by a female friend of mine, and I had no trouble going. I jumped on it, and went. Before SM, that would have been much more difficult for me. There would have been a general sense of desire to go, overwhelmed by an indistinct sense of dread, and when I ended up having to find a different outfit to go in than what I had planned (it was too wrinkled), and it made me late, I would have just become overwhelmed by the social anxiety and stayed home.
But last night, I went anyway, and the social anxiety was a very faint thing. As it turns out, I got there first, which I prefer to do when I don't know everyone present already. But this time, that didn't matter to me. And I met three attractive women, who I managed to get a chance to talk to one on one because I was doing eyeball chart readings and they were having a wonderful time hearing about themselves. It also gave me everything I needed and wanted to know about them in order to communicate with and seduce them, except who had kids and who was taken. I didn't go after any of them, instead opting to observe and enjoy the company of them on a more friendly level, simply because I didn't want to make a faux pas as a result of not knowing who is dating whom in this group. It paid off, as I would have wrecked myself big time if I had moved on the ones I liked.
My style is to act now if there's an obvious mutual connection, or move like moss if I see someone I am interested in and there's not. I will get to know her, let her get to know me, and then slowly figure out how to make her interested, and do it. Slow and steady wins the race, and it always works, as long as I am patient enough and I have pegged the right path to take.
One of the women there last night surprised me by going after someone else, when I was sure she'd go after me, but I didn't let it bother me at all. I just laughed at her later when she told me that he tried to force sex and she had to push him off. She doesn't think of me that way, yet, but I know that sooner or later the conspicuous lack of intimidation I show to her will pique her interest and she'll come after me. She, and the other women present, are all very strong and intelligent women, and all are used to intimidating men if the allow themselves to express themselves fully. I am not in the slightest intimidated by a strong, or an intelligent woman. In fact, those traits attract me.
But timing is everything, and the time is not quite right yet. So I will wait and when it is, I will go after and get the one I want. If I haven't changed my mind by then about who I want.
The blending of AM and SM is coming to a sort of maturity now, I can see, looking back, and the results are very nice. I was the only guy there last night who wasn't trying to get in someone's pants (except my friend's fiance), and I must say it was amusing watching them try. They were not exactly terribly good at what they were trying to do. So instead of trying to get into her pants, I went over and flirted with her playfully, and made her feel better and safer.
Definitely a huge change since I started SM. It is awesome.
***
04-28-2012, 11:58 AM
Sex Magnet is working it's manifestation magic. Friends I have not seen in years are showing up and suddenly inviting me to parties where I am meeting women who I can tell are interested, and other friends are suddenly introducing me to friends I didn't know they had, who are interested in me... mothers I am meeting are interested, and their daughters are too... this is going to get crazy soon, I can tell.
Sex Magnet is working it's manifestation magic. Friends I have not seen in years are showing up and suddenly inviting me to parties where I am meeting women who I can tell are interested, and other friends are suddenly introducing me to friends I didn't know they had, who are interested in me... mothers I am meeting are interested, and their daughters are too... this is going to get crazy soon, I can tell.
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04-30-2012, 01:32 PM
Today I went down to Miami to see my ex. She asked me for help, and as far as I can tell genuinely needed it, so I gave it to her.
What struck me was, on the way down, I was contemplating seducing her, and a little voice in my head said... "Don't do that, bad move, Shannon." So I didn't even try to and I intentionally controlled any sexual arousal and prevented her from becoming sexually aroused as well. Now this is the only woman I know of in the world who can turn me on genuinely, just by sitting down next to me. Our energy just does that to us... be near to each other long enough, and we always end up exchanging genetic material.
But this time, for the first time ever, I was able to crush it out of existence, and actively prevented her from feeling it, too, and I don't exactly know how. But what amazed me was... she began qualifying herself to me. And not for girlfriend, she's talking big times. She wants me to really come to respect her. I think she might be aiming for a long term strategy to get me back. I'm sure she would deny it, and maybe she doesn't even see it herself, but I do. And I did all this, making the choice not to seduce her and preventing anything from happening, without much difficulty... I have become so much stronger than I used to be it absolutely amazes me.
Today I went down to Miami to see my ex. She asked me for help, and as far as I can tell genuinely needed it, so I gave it to her.
What struck me was, on the way down, I was contemplating seducing her, and a little voice in my head said... "Don't do that, bad move, Shannon." So I didn't even try to and I intentionally controlled any sexual arousal and prevented her from becoming sexually aroused as well. Now this is the only woman I know of in the world who can turn me on genuinely, just by sitting down next to me. Our energy just does that to us... be near to each other long enough, and we always end up exchanging genetic material.
But this time, for the first time ever, I was able to crush it out of existence, and actively prevented her from feeling it, too, and I don't exactly know how. But what amazed me was... she began qualifying herself to me. And not for girlfriend, she's talking big times. She wants me to really come to respect her. I think she might be aiming for a long term strategy to get me back. I'm sure she would deny it, and maybe she doesn't even see it herself, but I do. And I did all this, making the choice not to seduce her and preventing anything from happening, without much difficulty... I have become so much stronger than I used to be it absolutely amazes me.
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04-30-2012, 10:41 PM
I now seem to have attracted a rather determined pursuer, who is making her interest known, and not giving up. She is trying harder and harder to escalate things to sex. I have to laugh. SM 2.0 is finding ways to get through the cracks and bring the women to me who want to have sex with me, even though I'm not really participating... it's starting to be as if my value is going so high that they're seeking me out in spite of hiding, and there will eventually be no hiding or denying. I can feel it. Some woman sooner or later is going to get through my defenses and and jump me.
My standards have gone up, and something seems to be pushing me to avoid the options for sex that are more and more appearing in my life. I think there is a part of me that is afraid to be sexually intimate because I associate emotion with it, and I don't want to get involved for sex alone.
Regardless, I can feel it coming... there's a sort of energy building in me that seems to be making me utterly irresistible to certain types of women, and I am noticing commonalities in the personality types I am attracting. They are all of the sensual or passionate personality class, with a sexual core that is either emotional pr passionate.
It won't be long now before it's unaviodable, I think.
I now seem to have attracted a rather determined pursuer, who is making her interest known, and not giving up. She is trying harder and harder to escalate things to sex. I have to laugh. SM 2.0 is finding ways to get through the cracks and bring the women to me who want to have sex with me, even though I'm not really participating... it's starting to be as if my value is going so high that they're seeking me out in spite of hiding, and there will eventually be no hiding or denying. I can feel it. Some woman sooner or later is going to get through my defenses and and jump me.
My standards have gone up, and something seems to be pushing me to avoid the options for sex that are more and more appearing in my life. I think there is a part of me that is afraid to be sexually intimate because I associate emotion with it, and I don't want to get involved for sex alone.
Regardless, I can feel it coming... there's a sort of energy building in me that seems to be making me utterly irresistible to certain types of women, and I am noticing commonalities in the personality types I am attracting. They are all of the sensual or passionate personality class, with a sexual core that is either emotional pr passionate.
It won't be long now before it's unaviodable, I think.
***
05-01-2012, 07:49 AM
I just realized that SM 2.0 is doing several interesting things. My copy specifies certain things that are not in the general release, such as "younger women only". Yet I spend all my time in my house working, and at least one of the women pursuing me is older than me. But I realize that one of her daughters fits the requirements of "of legal age of consent and younger than me". And one of my friends has suddenly in the last few months taken to trying to find suitable women to set me up with, when she never did this before... she's actually started finding herself new friends and keeps checking out her new friends as potential girlfriends or lovers for me and telling me about it. SM 2.0 will find a way, apparently.
I just realized that SM 2.0 is doing several interesting things. My copy specifies certain things that are not in the general release, such as "younger women only". Yet I spend all my time in my house working, and at least one of the women pursuing me is older than me. But I realize that one of her daughters fits the requirements of "of legal age of consent and younger than me". And one of my friends has suddenly in the last few months taken to trying to find suitable women to set me up with, when she never did this before... she's actually started finding herself new friends and keeps checking out her new friends as potential girlfriends or lovers for me and telling me about it. SM 2.0 will find a way, apparently.
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05-05-2012, 08:17 AM
I am thinking that I must have some serious resistance to having sex since the end of my last major relationship... I find myself more and more resisting these women who are stepping forward because of SM 2.0, and trying to avoid sex with them. I believe this is happening because I need to heal from that last major relationship still. Which means I should add something to SM to trigger healing and "allowance" of sex with the right women.
Then again, maybe I am just not cool with sex for the sake of sex anymore. I don't know. I do know that more and more, I feel conscious and intentional resistance to having sex, and I have actually stopped trying to interest and seduce them at all... I think that would change if I could find someone with whom I could have a relationship, instead of just sex. Right now, the women who have stepped forward are not options for me for one reason or another.
If all I wanted was sex, I could have been having sex for at least a couple months now, I'm sure. At least I know I need this healing now... I guess I'll have to make a program for that.
I am thinking that I must have some serious resistance to having sex since the end of my last major relationship... I find myself more and more resisting these women who are stepping forward because of SM 2.0, and trying to avoid sex with them. I believe this is happening because I need to heal from that last major relationship still. Which means I should add something to SM to trigger healing and "allowance" of sex with the right women.
Then again, maybe I am just not cool with sex for the sake of sex anymore. I don't know. I do know that more and more, I feel conscious and intentional resistance to having sex, and I have actually stopped trying to interest and seduce them at all... I think that would change if I could find someone with whom I could have a relationship, instead of just sex. Right now, the women who have stepped forward are not options for me for one reason or another.
If all I wanted was sex, I could have been having sex for at least a couple months now, I'm sure. At least I know I need this healing now... I guess I'll have to make a program for that.
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05-06-2012, 03:06 AM
I spent the day so far out and about with my uncles and cousin, and we went to the gun range. Lots of fun, but what catches my attention is how when I spend sufficient time out of the house, I automatically and naturally go back into hunter mode... I saw some attractive females of appropriate age at the range. I wasn't trying to give them attention there because I was busy, that seems to have triggered it.
Then we went out to lunch, and I was giving the attractive waitresses the eye... and very pointedly, aggressively, making sure they knew what I was thinking. They seemed to be responding with acknowledgement and a little bit of flirtation in response. It was oddly not quite one thing or the other though... too much to be nothing, and not enough to mean anything. Strange.
Then while driving home, I happened to pass an attractive redheaded woman holding a sign out in front of a shop advertising it, and I immediately and aggressively locked eyes with her as I passed, so directly that she seemed instantly mesmerized and both of us turned our heads almost 180 degrees to track my movement... and, she held eye contact just as long as I did... way too long to be an accident.
Very interesting how I seem avoidant in some cases, and aggressively direct and hunting in others.
I spent the day so far out and about with my uncles and cousin, and we went to the gun range. Lots of fun, but what catches my attention is how when I spend sufficient time out of the house, I automatically and naturally go back into hunter mode... I saw some attractive females of appropriate age at the range. I wasn't trying to give them attention there because I was busy, that seems to have triggered it.
Then we went out to lunch, and I was giving the attractive waitresses the eye... and very pointedly, aggressively, making sure they knew what I was thinking. They seemed to be responding with acknowledgement and a little bit of flirtation in response. It was oddly not quite one thing or the other though... too much to be nothing, and not enough to mean anything. Strange.
Then while driving home, I happened to pass an attractive redheaded woman holding a sign out in front of a shop advertising it, and I immediately and aggressively locked eyes with her as I passed, so directly that she seemed instantly mesmerized and both of us turned our heads almost 180 degrees to track my movement... and, she held eye contact just as long as I did... way too long to be an accident.
Very interesting how I seem avoidant in some cases, and aggressively direct and hunting in others.
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05-06-2012, 01:24 PM
I went out tonight and had three beers and then a shot of Jager. I cannot believe some of what I was doing... drunk? perhaps slightly. But not staggering. Not slurring. And I was interacting with the band like they were old friends. By the end of the night, I drank that shot of Jager with them while they were on stage, and later the bass player (and backup singer) came over and said to me... "You guys rock, dude!"
SM 2.0 is really getting me out of my shell! Most impressed. I was also getting eyes from several women while I was there, but those who were not married, taken or engaged were not to my liking... so I didn't go after anyone. But I did find one of them, a very attractive woman, giving me the CFM eyes, and then I saw a big rock on her left hand. I very nearly walked over and said to her, "You, madam, are entirely too married." Then I saw her husband, three times my size and thought better of it.
But still, it made for a lot of laughs at my table, and I had an awesome time. Impossible six months ago, for me to have relaxed and enjoyed myself that much without getting absolutely plastered.
I went out tonight and had three beers and then a shot of Jager. I cannot believe some of what I was doing... drunk? perhaps slightly. But not staggering. Not slurring. And I was interacting with the band like they were old friends. By the end of the night, I drank that shot of Jager with them while they were on stage, and later the bass player (and backup singer) came over and said to me... "You guys rock, dude!"
SM 2.0 is really getting me out of my shell! Most impressed. I was also getting eyes from several women while I was there, but those who were not married, taken or engaged were not to my liking... so I didn't go after anyone. But I did find one of them, a very attractive woman, giving me the CFM eyes, and then I saw a big rock on her left hand. I very nearly walked over and said to her, "You, madam, are entirely too married." Then I saw her husband, three times my size and thought better of it.
But still, it made for a lot of laughs at my table, and I had an awesome time. Impossible six months ago, for me to have relaxed and enjoyed myself that much without getting absolutely plastered.***
05-07-2012, 12:57 PM
Oh, something you who are following my SM 2.0 journey might find interesting... I had a woman straight up proposition me for sex today. She said, "We should have sex tonight." It's a shame she was talking about phone sex. I don't do that.
Oh, something you who are following my SM 2.0 journey might find interesting... I had a woman straight up proposition me for sex today. She said, "We should have sex tonight." It's a shame she was talking about phone sex. I don't do that.
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05-18-2012, 12:49 PM
Tonight I was at a cafe style restaurant and working... and I had two different very attractive women giving me serious, major IOIs. One kept walking past and making eye contact and smiling sweetly every time I turned around, and was very much interested in talking with me every time I gave her the slightest excuse. Interestingly, she let me do almost all the talking, and when she did talk, she was qualifying herself. I could tell she was seriously interested because she had "that look" in her eyes, the kind a woman gets when she sees a man she is thinking should be her future husband? I had a wonderful time talking to her, and I can tell she will be waiting for me to return. She looked kinda young though.
There was another woman, this one more physically attractive and not American, who was responding to me in ways I almost could not believe. She started looking at me immediately when I sat down and kept giving me what she tried to make secret glances all evening. She was also giving just about every body language signal of sexual arousal a woman can make shy of saying so, while she was tied up in a group discussion with what I believe must have been family. Had I been able to think of ANY way to open her, I have no doubt in my mind at all that had I given her any excuse at all, she'd have slept with me, multiple times, stayed the night at my place, and probably would have been my girlfriend when we woke up and did it all over again. It was that obvious that she was hungry and I was the reason... but how to open a woman who is engaged in conversation with a whole family, especially from a culture and country I am not familiar with? Argh!
Hopefully I'll see her again. Got to go there more often.
I am really enjoying the results of SM 2.0 now!
Tonight I was at a cafe style restaurant and working... and I had two different very attractive women giving me serious, major IOIs. One kept walking past and making eye contact and smiling sweetly every time I turned around, and was very much interested in talking with me every time I gave her the slightest excuse. Interestingly, she let me do almost all the talking, and when she did talk, she was qualifying herself. I could tell she was seriously interested because she had "that look" in her eyes, the kind a woman gets when she sees a man she is thinking should be her future husband? I had a wonderful time talking to her, and I can tell she will be waiting for me to return. She looked kinda young though.
There was another woman, this one more physically attractive and not American, who was responding to me in ways I almost could not believe. She started looking at me immediately when I sat down and kept giving me what she tried to make secret glances all evening. She was also giving just about every body language signal of sexual arousal a woman can make shy of saying so, while she was tied up in a group discussion with what I believe must have been family. Had I been able to think of ANY way to open her, I have no doubt in my mind at all that had I given her any excuse at all, she'd have slept with me, multiple times, stayed the night at my place, and probably would have been my girlfriend when we woke up and did it all over again. It was that obvious that she was hungry and I was the reason... but how to open a woman who is engaged in conversation with a whole family, especially from a culture and country I am not familiar with? Argh!
Hopefully I'll see her again. Got to go there more often.
I am really enjoying the results of SM 2.0 now!
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05-19-2012, 11:14 AM
More women showing up in my life who are shall we say eminently compatible with me in ways that make them obvious manifestations of SM 2.0...
More women showing up in my life who are shall we say eminently compatible with me in ways that make them obvious manifestations of SM 2.0...
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05-30-2012, 07:28 AM
SM 2.0 is producing some insane results all by itself. Lately, I have women just showing up in my life all over the place who are very very compatible with me, and it is my choice whether or not I want to be sexually intimate with them. They keep piling up.
So far I have been extremely particular about who I have been with, and have done so for the sake of being wise about short and long term repercussions. But... I could have slept with more than 20 women since I started using this program, and I believe that it is setting up a lot of options for me in the long run, too. If I am right, next year should be absolutely insane, with the residuals straggling in.
One of the biggest reasons I haven't accepted many offers is that I know that if I do, I'll start getting distracted from my goal, which is to become extremely wealthy. I have more options now than I can keep track of, and the question isn't "Will she?", it's "Do I want to?" Truly, anyone who uses SM 2.0 all six stages and doesn't end up with a damned swarm is hiding from the world harder than I have been!
SM 2.0 is producing some insane results all by itself. Lately, I have women just showing up in my life all over the place who are very very compatible with me, and it is my choice whether or not I want to be sexually intimate with them. They keep piling up.
So far I have been extremely particular about who I have been with, and have done so for the sake of being wise about short and long term repercussions. But... I could have slept with more than 20 women since I started using this program, and I believe that it is setting up a lot of options for me in the long run, too. If I am right, next year should be absolutely insane, with the residuals straggling in.
One of the biggest reasons I haven't accepted many offers is that I know that if I do, I'll start getting distracted from my goal, which is to become extremely wealthy. I have more options now than I can keep track of, and the question isn't "Will she?", it's "Do I want to?" Truly, anyone who uses SM 2.0 all six stages and doesn't end up with a damned swarm is hiding from the world harder than I have been!
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07-06-2012, 02:34 AM
Alright, I am done with SM 2.0 and here's what I have noticed that it did for me.
First of all... it has killed my social anxiety. The worst anxiety I had in a long time was yesterday when I was heading to the beach to meet some people I did not know well. At it's worst, it was a faint sliver of a shadow of it's former self, and easily ignored. Beyond that, it's been pretty much nonexistent for months now. I am very impressed with how much more social this program has made me. I now have some social life because of it, although it's hard to have much of a social life between trying to work all the time and trying to be responsible with money. But I do get out now, and whenever I do, people male and female enjoy my company, look forward to seeing me, and some of the women have been giving me special treatment.
Second, my sex life has taken off again. It's not what I had been aiming for, with the program, but that's primarily a result of the fact that I don't have unlimited time or monetary freedom to put myself in the position of socializing frequently enough or in the right places all the time for that goal to be realized, and the fact that of all the women who have been presented to me as options, only two are single. So the one I have been having sex with is actually the woman I was dating before my major travels last year. I don't want to accept offers from other people's wives, fiances or girlfriends. If I was willing to, I would have had sex with at least two wives, one fiance and three girlfriends by now.
Third, some of the effects that SM 2.0 has had on me have been achieving the goal of the program in unexpected ways. It has given me ideas for things to do that I was definitely not expecting, which have definitely resulted in a lot more interest from the ladies. The way I respond to women now is much more comfortable and my natural personality shines through in a way that makes them love me. At one point, I had a hot bartender, a hot fiance and a hot wife all at once expressing major sexual attraction and interest, while the fiance and husband were oblivious and talking to me like I was their best friend. I mean like I could have had any of them that night, had I done things a little differently, but of course I don't touch taken, and the one who wasn't taken, I think deserves better than to just be used for sex. So who knows, maybe she'll end up my girlfriend.
All in all, just for the breaking down of the social anxiety and the effect it has had on my self confidence and getting me out and socializing and making friends... this program is worth more than it costs, in my opinion. I would have paid a LOT more than it costs to have what I have now as a result of using it. Now, the only challenge I have to having sex is having the time free to socialize and the house clean. Kinda hard to keep the house clean with dogs going in and out all the time, and working all the time.
SM 2.0 is so good that I am seriously tempted to just keep using it for another 6 months... as much as I want to use AM 5.0, and also do experiments with manifestations.
Two thumbs up. I'm impressed.
Alright, I am done with SM 2.0 and here's what I have noticed that it did for me.
First of all... it has killed my social anxiety. The worst anxiety I had in a long time was yesterday when I was heading to the beach to meet some people I did not know well. At it's worst, it was a faint sliver of a shadow of it's former self, and easily ignored. Beyond that, it's been pretty much nonexistent for months now. I am very impressed with how much more social this program has made me. I now have some social life because of it, although it's hard to have much of a social life between trying to work all the time and trying to be responsible with money. But I do get out now, and whenever I do, people male and female enjoy my company, look forward to seeing me, and some of the women have been giving me special treatment.
Second, my sex life has taken off again. It's not what I had been aiming for, with the program, but that's primarily a result of the fact that I don't have unlimited time or monetary freedom to put myself in the position of socializing frequently enough or in the right places all the time for that goal to be realized, and the fact that of all the women who have been presented to me as options, only two are single. So the one I have been having sex with is actually the woman I was dating before my major travels last year. I don't want to accept offers from other people's wives, fiances or girlfriends. If I was willing to, I would have had sex with at least two wives, one fiance and three girlfriends by now.
Third, some of the effects that SM 2.0 has had on me have been achieving the goal of the program in unexpected ways. It has given me ideas for things to do that I was definitely not expecting, which have definitely resulted in a lot more interest from the ladies. The way I respond to women now is much more comfortable and my natural personality shines through in a way that makes them love me. At one point, I had a hot bartender, a hot fiance and a hot wife all at once expressing major sexual attraction and interest, while the fiance and husband were oblivious and talking to me like I was their best friend. I mean like I could have had any of them that night, had I done things a little differently, but of course I don't touch taken, and the one who wasn't taken, I think deserves better than to just be used for sex. So who knows, maybe she'll end up my girlfriend.
All in all, just for the breaking down of the social anxiety and the effect it has had on my self confidence and getting me out and socializing and making friends... this program is worth more than it costs, in my opinion. I would have paid a LOT more than it costs to have what I have now as a result of using it. Now, the only challenge I have to having sex is having the time free to socialize and the house clean. Kinda hard to keep the house clean with dogs going in and out all the time, and working all the time.
SM 2.0 is so good that I am seriously tempted to just keep using it for another 6 months... as much as I want to use AM 5.0, and also do experiments with manifestations.
Two thumbs up. I'm impressed.
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