03-07-2015, 01:19 PM
Stage 3, Day 32
Well, I actually went back and calculated my days again and I actually miscalculated somewhere. I found out that today is actually my last day on stage 3 and starting tonight I will begin stage 4. I'm actually relieved because I really do want to get off this stage since it has been less than "Stellar". Anyway, review for stage 3:
Internal Results: I gained a lot more determination towards reaching my goals. Along with this I pretty much don't waste my time with things that don't further my long term goals as well. I feel like I this has also rubbed off on my thoughts about women these days. If I don't see anything see myself becoming serious with the woman and she can add more growth to my life, I really don't pay attention to her all that much. I'm starting to take more practical considerations when thinking about relationships. Do any of these women try to improve themselves? Would they actually help me towards self-development or would they hinder me? I think that last question has been a major one for me. Another thing that I've mentioned is that I've become very, very calm during social interactions. This is mostly due to the apathetic attitude I've been having towards social interactions. Any use of most media is almost none existent. One other benefit has been that I can now go long periods of time without looking at porn. It like one day I said I would kick the habit and have gone up to two weeks without looking at it.
External results: Not much to say here. I've noticed women in my classes deciding to sit by me now, though not necessarily talking to me. I've also had 3 incidents of random people just trying to start a conversation with me out of the blue. Other than that, not much has happened. I'm not surprised though since, like i said in my previous post, manifestation doesn't really start until next stage.
On a side note, later yesterday I ran into a female I know and the conversation was annoying to say the least. I don't know why I keep running into these women that SXlt shame other women who have sex with men within a few days of meeting them. I really don't get that mentality. The way I see it is that there are some people who get comfortable with a new partner very quickly and are up to having sex within a few days. Others aren't as comfortable with that and want to wait til much later. Honestly, its just up to the personal preference of the person themselves with what they are comfortable with. Its one thing to say, "Hey, I respect their decision but that course just isn't for me". Its another thing entirely to go on about how women who sleep with a new partner within days of meeting them are "SluXs" and "disgusting". I mean, there are many cultures where they see Sex as something more natural and not a big deal. Does that mean that your way is the only right way and that all the women in those cultures are "Sluxs" and disgusting? I would like to say that I respect that women's position concerning herself but part of me thinks a lot of it is societal programming. I finding more and more that people who use fear, shame, and guilt against people like above are nothing more than sheep that see other sheep starting to stray to far and use these things to try and get them back in the heard. I find that the people who use these "weapons" are most often the most indoctrinated people and often don't even question their own beliefs about the subject. Another interesting coincidence i'm finding with the women who have this view (Not that its wrong that "they live this way" but that they believe "everyone" should follow this way or that person is a Slux) are normally they are the least attractive females and have very little if any actual dating experience. I wonder sometimes if the women with these bitter and jaded views towards sexual relations are mostly that way because of their bad experiences with men and feel they need to put down other women to feel vindicated. I guess I will never really know. Either way, thought I would voice that since that conversation yesterday hit a nerve for some reason. I'm very intolerant towards people who use these shaming tools due to societal programming nowadays.
Well, I actually went back and calculated my days again and I actually miscalculated somewhere. I found out that today is actually my last day on stage 3 and starting tonight I will begin stage 4. I'm actually relieved because I really do want to get off this stage since it has been less than "Stellar". Anyway, review for stage 3:
Internal Results: I gained a lot more determination towards reaching my goals. Along with this I pretty much don't waste my time with things that don't further my long term goals as well. I feel like I this has also rubbed off on my thoughts about women these days. If I don't see anything see myself becoming serious with the woman and she can add more growth to my life, I really don't pay attention to her all that much. I'm starting to take more practical considerations when thinking about relationships. Do any of these women try to improve themselves? Would they actually help me towards self-development or would they hinder me? I think that last question has been a major one for me. Another thing that I've mentioned is that I've become very, very calm during social interactions. This is mostly due to the apathetic attitude I've been having towards social interactions. Any use of most media is almost none existent. One other benefit has been that I can now go long periods of time without looking at porn. It like one day I said I would kick the habit and have gone up to two weeks without looking at it.
External results: Not much to say here. I've noticed women in my classes deciding to sit by me now, though not necessarily talking to me. I've also had 3 incidents of random people just trying to start a conversation with me out of the blue. Other than that, not much has happened. I'm not surprised though since, like i said in my previous post, manifestation doesn't really start until next stage.
On a side note, later yesterday I ran into a female I know and the conversation was annoying to say the least. I don't know why I keep running into these women that SXlt shame other women who have sex with men within a few days of meeting them. I really don't get that mentality. The way I see it is that there are some people who get comfortable with a new partner very quickly and are up to having sex within a few days. Others aren't as comfortable with that and want to wait til much later. Honestly, its just up to the personal preference of the person themselves with what they are comfortable with. Its one thing to say, "Hey, I respect their decision but that course just isn't for me". Its another thing entirely to go on about how women who sleep with a new partner within days of meeting them are "SluXs" and "disgusting". I mean, there are many cultures where they see Sex as something more natural and not a big deal. Does that mean that your way is the only right way and that all the women in those cultures are "Sluxs" and disgusting? I would like to say that I respect that women's position concerning herself but part of me thinks a lot of it is societal programming. I finding more and more that people who use fear, shame, and guilt against people like above are nothing more than sheep that see other sheep starting to stray to far and use these things to try and get them back in the heard. I find that the people who use these "weapons" are most often the most indoctrinated people and often don't even question their own beliefs about the subject. Another interesting coincidence i'm finding with the women who have this view (Not that its wrong that "they live this way" but that they believe "everyone" should follow this way or that person is a Slux) are normally they are the least attractive females and have very little if any actual dating experience. I wonder sometimes if the women with these bitter and jaded views towards sexual relations are mostly that way because of their bad experiences with men and feel they need to put down other women to feel vindicated. I guess I will never really know. Either way, thought I would voice that since that conversation yesterday hit a nerve for some reason. I'm very intolerant towards people who use these shaming tools due to societal programming nowadays.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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