03-03-2015, 07:52 PM
Stage 2, Day 26,
Wake, work, busy day (didn't eat much except for my one snack).
Got home a bit earlier than usual, took advantage of that to hit the gym early, go home and do pMemory. Currently done with Lesson 37; over the hill!
Some things I noticed:
- My public speaking skills are good, much better than when I talk one-on-one. It must be the mild adrenaline going on when I'm speaking in front of a group
- My willingness to accept change has gone up. Which means that if I have to add a new habit, or change a habit, or get a comment on my performance, for the most part, I'm thinking: "Oh? Okay", and just make the small change. This will translate to bigger things when I graduate and get to leave the city
- The steps that it would take to accomplish my life vision/purpose seem less daunting. For some reason, phone calls, creating events, or doing too much networking was daunting for me. Now, I see it as something that I can do and enjoy if I have to.
- My meditation session was anything but relaxing; I had created this scenario where my gf (who doesn't exist) verbally abuses me, so I record her, then she tries to knife me, and I'm forced to punch her and throw her out. Then I fumed about all the pity she'd get, and all the pillorying I'd get; which is why I recorded it. I was angry the entire session, but as soon as it ended, I feel fine now.
- I realized that if you think you're categorically the best on a field, you're wrong, and it's a bigger sign that you've got feelings of entitlement that permeates all other areas of life. That feeling has gone away (regarding my songwriting, though it is damn good), and has been replaced for a desire to properly translate and capture that value for people
Wake, work, busy day (didn't eat much except for my one snack).
Got home a bit earlier than usual, took advantage of that to hit the gym early, go home and do pMemory. Currently done with Lesson 37; over the hill!
Some things I noticed:
- My public speaking skills are good, much better than when I talk one-on-one. It must be the mild adrenaline going on when I'm speaking in front of a group
- My willingness to accept change has gone up. Which means that if I have to add a new habit, or change a habit, or get a comment on my performance, for the most part, I'm thinking: "Oh? Okay", and just make the small change. This will translate to bigger things when I graduate and get to leave the city
- The steps that it would take to accomplish my life vision/purpose seem less daunting. For some reason, phone calls, creating events, or doing too much networking was daunting for me. Now, I see it as something that I can do and enjoy if I have to.
- My meditation session was anything but relaxing; I had created this scenario where my gf (who doesn't exist) verbally abuses me, so I record her, then she tries to knife me, and I'm forced to punch her and throw her out. Then I fumed about all the pity she'd get, and all the pillorying I'd get; which is why I recorded it. I was angry the entire session, but as soon as it ended, I feel fine now.
- I realized that if you think you're categorically the best on a field, you're wrong, and it's a bigger sign that you've got feelings of entitlement that permeates all other areas of life. That feeling has gone away (regarding my songwriting, though it is damn good), and has been replaced for a desire to properly translate and capture that value for people
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