Stage 2, Day 9,
Today is Valentine's Day. I spent my morning doing the pMemory test at lesson 24. I got 29/30 correct, so I'm able to move on to the next module on Monday. I still need to improve my ability to do longer sequences of numbers; I seem to only memorize 10-12 double-digit numbers at a time.
I had sushi alone today, then I spent a large portion of the day at home, distracted with YouTube and other things. This is fine, since it's my day off of everything, so I can take advantage. But today has shown me that I need to develop my social and love life further, as I can think of few people I'd want to bring along with me, or are logistically close to hang out with regularly.
I've been hanging out with this cool guy at least once a week. He had a party this evening, and him and his friends smoke weed. I don't care, but if this guy is the only person I'm hanging out with, it might influence my behavior. I always have a good laugh with the group though.
I also realize that I need to be around more women, but also to learn how to talk to them in a way that they like. I also want to get to the level where I 'know' that I'll be having sex with a particular woman, so I can relax and enjoy the conversation as it unfolds, as opposed to freaking out and wondering: 'does she like me?'.
This needs to be handled with rigor on the 2nd half of 2015, as this first half is already pretty stacked with commitments and time constraints. Only small success can be had this part of the year; enough to tide me over, for sure, but it will only be bandage level change until I finish my placements.
Today is Valentine's Day. I spent my morning doing the pMemory test at lesson 24. I got 29/30 correct, so I'm able to move on to the next module on Monday. I still need to improve my ability to do longer sequences of numbers; I seem to only memorize 10-12 double-digit numbers at a time.
I had sushi alone today, then I spent a large portion of the day at home, distracted with YouTube and other things. This is fine, since it's my day off of everything, so I can take advantage. But today has shown me that I need to develop my social and love life further, as I can think of few people I'd want to bring along with me, or are logistically close to hang out with regularly.
I've been hanging out with this cool guy at least once a week. He had a party this evening, and him and his friends smoke weed. I don't care, but if this guy is the only person I'm hanging out with, it might influence my behavior. I always have a good laugh with the group though.
I also realize that I need to be around more women, but also to learn how to talk to them in a way that they like. I also want to get to the level where I 'know' that I'll be having sex with a particular woman, so I can relax and enjoy the conversation as it unfolds, as opposed to freaking out and wondering: 'does she like me?'.
This needs to be handled with rigor on the 2nd half of 2015, as this first half is already pretty stacked with commitments and time constraints. Only small success can be had this part of the year; enough to tide me over, for sure, but it will only be bandage level change until I finish my placements.
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