02-04-2015, 06:46 PM
Stage 1, Day 32,
As Shannon said, they came through in a jiffy.
I got hold of Stage 2 by an unconventional way, sent by Ben, the tech guy for IML. Deleted the corrupted version.
I was looking back on 'who I was' going into the new year, but 'who I was' entering 2014, and I've got to say that I've changed at such a deep level that it's almost freaky. Who was this person that didn't know what curry powder was, who didn't really know how to please a woman, who didn't have strong boundaries, afraid to sing in public. Just 8 months ago, I took a job that I wound up hating, I was stuck and felt powerless (even with a run of AM5). The job was eventually gone and I went toward a job that I thought was awesome (while also doing my main job), then I had some great experiences with women.
There are still things where I need to figure out and 'get down': a consistent flow of money, women, security, independence. But I'm okay with myself and who I am now. Stage 2 will probably kick my ass to improve each area.
Stage 1 brought me these main things:
- I care much, much less than before;
- I don't think I could ever get caught up on a woman unless she's really special and we've connected well;
- I've deepened my connection with my current lover, and brought her into my ecosystem a little bit;
- I'm pretty motivated to do as much as I can with my day, though lower energy levels (especially near the end of this stage) sometimes leave me with something to be desired.
- When I'm "on", I'm ON; I just throw off this aura of power and masculinity. I wind up looking handsome-er in the process;
- A lot of the time, I'm not ON, and I feel emotional instability, to the point where I feel like crying and I can't stare people in the eye;
- I'm much more prospective about my future, I think it's because I've accepted where I am in the present.
- One of my motto is 'Know your role and shut up'; it has to do with the fact that I'm in school in order to complete and graduate. It's not the time to focus on women or wealth-building just yet. I know that my role right now is to become a work professional, and I will focus on that until I graduate (plus 2 other priorities);
- Oh my gosh, I'm consistent with my main priorities, semi-consistent with my secondary priorities; Gym and pMemory are on point, literally 100%. Singing, songwriting and guitar are roughly 50%.
That's most of it. Stage 2 begins now
As Shannon said, they came through in a jiffy.
I got hold of Stage 2 by an unconventional way, sent by Ben, the tech guy for IML. Deleted the corrupted version.
I was looking back on 'who I was' going into the new year, but 'who I was' entering 2014, and I've got to say that I've changed at such a deep level that it's almost freaky. Who was this person that didn't know what curry powder was, who didn't really know how to please a woman, who didn't have strong boundaries, afraid to sing in public. Just 8 months ago, I took a job that I wound up hating, I was stuck and felt powerless (even with a run of AM5). The job was eventually gone and I went toward a job that I thought was awesome (while also doing my main job), then I had some great experiences with women.
There are still things where I need to figure out and 'get down': a consistent flow of money, women, security, independence. But I'm okay with myself and who I am now. Stage 2 will probably kick my ass to improve each area.
Stage 1 brought me these main things:
- I care much, much less than before;
- I don't think I could ever get caught up on a woman unless she's really special and we've connected well;
- I've deepened my connection with my current lover, and brought her into my ecosystem a little bit;
- I'm pretty motivated to do as much as I can with my day, though lower energy levels (especially near the end of this stage) sometimes leave me with something to be desired.
- When I'm "on", I'm ON; I just throw off this aura of power and masculinity. I wind up looking handsome-er in the process;
- A lot of the time, I'm not ON, and I feel emotional instability, to the point where I feel like crying and I can't stare people in the eye;
- I'm much more prospective about my future, I think it's because I've accepted where I am in the present.
- One of my motto is 'Know your role and shut up'; it has to do with the fact that I'm in school in order to complete and graduate. It's not the time to focus on women or wealth-building just yet. I know that my role right now is to become a work professional, and I will focus on that until I graduate (plus 2 other priorities);
- Oh my gosh, I'm consistent with my main priorities, semi-consistent with my secondary priorities; Gym and pMemory are on point, literally 100%. Singing, songwriting and guitar are roughly 50%.
That's most of it. Stage 2 begins now
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