01-25-2015, 06:04 AM
Having no attachments is high on my feelings lately, I just keep feeling I want to be free. I don't mind just being an alone wolf for a while and started new, and if people I like come along and I enjoy their company then yeah I would come out of my alone wolf'ness and be around people I like to be around.
It is surprising how AM5 makes me annoyed, frustrated and pissed off and many different things, things within things, within things, it gets into my core of how I see things and see the stupidity in them.
I am very aware of it though and I don't express it willy nilly, unless It REALLY gets to me and I might express my anger or views.
I would feel very stupid going around expressing my views on the BS around me, when I have to live under the same roof as everyone, that would be funny indeed, but I learnt a lot from doing Alphas years ago and how that did not help my situation.
Feelings are very powerful, they change perceptions of every single thing (basically creating my reality)
I am a very paradoxical person, to my self. I can go along my daily life and think and feel one thing about something and then later on have different perceptions of it and then think and feel something different about it.
It is annoying because once upon a time, I used to know who I was. Now I don't know, I can be anyone I want and I can keep changing my thoughts, feelings and perceptions of everything. There is no solid base of 'Oh I am this' because it can and does change all the time.
Even our own sexual desires are tricking us, it is only to spread our seed. Look how it has taken over so many people and let having sex an actual goal. Our own bodies are actually tricking us, just so we spread our seed.
I am aware of it and I have been aware for a long time now. It basically makes me think what is important in my life, because sex is not. You only have to compare how your thoughts, feelings and perceptions are before sex and after you have squirted your load. They are completely different, it actually changes your thoughts and perceptions and feelings, so you go and spread your seed.
How is that for mind control? It is an animal feature. I am aware of that and I would never, ever let that dictate where I focus my life, ever. It's completely BS and I am not falling for that.
It is surprising how AM5 makes me annoyed, frustrated and pissed off and many different things, things within things, within things, it gets into my core of how I see things and see the stupidity in them.
I am very aware of it though and I don't express it willy nilly, unless It REALLY gets to me and I might express my anger or views.
I would feel very stupid going around expressing my views on the BS around me, when I have to live under the same roof as everyone, that would be funny indeed, but I learnt a lot from doing Alphas years ago and how that did not help my situation.
Feelings are very powerful, they change perceptions of every single thing (basically creating my reality)
I am a very paradoxical person, to my self. I can go along my daily life and think and feel one thing about something and then later on have different perceptions of it and then think and feel something different about it.
It is annoying because once upon a time, I used to know who I was. Now I don't know, I can be anyone I want and I can keep changing my thoughts, feelings and perceptions of everything. There is no solid base of 'Oh I am this' because it can and does change all the time.
Even our own sexual desires are tricking us, it is only to spread our seed. Look how it has taken over so many people and let having sex an actual goal. Our own bodies are actually tricking us, just so we spread our seed.
I am aware of it and I have been aware for a long time now. It basically makes me think what is important in my life, because sex is not. You only have to compare how your thoughts, feelings and perceptions are before sex and after you have squirted your load. They are completely different, it actually changes your thoughts and perceptions and feelings, so you go and spread your seed.
How is that for mind control? It is an animal feature. I am aware of that and I would never, ever let that dictate where I focus my life, ever. It's completely BS and I am not falling for that.
