01-23-2015, 08:45 PM
Stage 1, Day 20,
Today was a good day for getting my things done. I have a checklist system, and this was the first day that I could say that I checked off everything (maybe half for one since I didn't actually cook a new meal, but I bought all the needed ingredients).
I intend on doing the same thing tomorrow, except the meal will be cooked.
For class, I did an interview, and did okay. Then, I observed different classmates doing it above and beyond, which opened my eyes. I already knew that I have more to learn, and it's still exciting. But I also look forward to graduating so that I can really start the music path. I'm be practicing and writing until then, so that I'll be really tight.
I felt extreme anger at an imagined situation, which was pretty absurd. Anger to the point of thoughts of killing a specific person (which I haven't even met). Weird; it's much simpler to pull away from stress. Plus, it's very tempting to use clearing techniques.. Nope
This is a great Free Tour video by RSD. Shows the real price to pay for the lack of focus and action:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPpIGQ9ZWFw
I realized that I hadn't given sex any thoughts for 5 days (since the last time I had sex), so low sex drive, but I still took care of that. Wondering if this has to do with Stage 1.
Today was a good day for getting my things done. I have a checklist system, and this was the first day that I could say that I checked off everything (maybe half for one since I didn't actually cook a new meal, but I bought all the needed ingredients).
I intend on doing the same thing tomorrow, except the meal will be cooked.
For class, I did an interview, and did okay. Then, I observed different classmates doing it above and beyond, which opened my eyes. I already knew that I have more to learn, and it's still exciting. But I also look forward to graduating so that I can really start the music path. I'm be practicing and writing until then, so that I'll be really tight.
I felt extreme anger at an imagined situation, which was pretty absurd. Anger to the point of thoughts of killing a specific person (which I haven't even met). Weird; it's much simpler to pull away from stress. Plus, it's very tempting to use clearing techniques.. Nope
This is a great Free Tour video by RSD. Shows the real price to pay for the lack of focus and action:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPpIGQ9ZWFw
I realized that I hadn't given sex any thoughts for 5 days (since the last time I had sex), so low sex drive, but I still took care of that. Wondering if this has to do with Stage 1.
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