01-16-2015, 08:18 PM
Stage 1, Day 13,
Plays: 206 hours/plays
Today, I felt a bit better, though I got less sleep. Did gym and then school (instead of pMemory). Class went well; I'm noticing a couple of my female classmates giving me repeated eye contact and little smiles. I was much better today than yesterday (not feeling anything negative).
Had a big discovery that I shouldn't ever modify my behavior just because women/a woman likes it. In fact, it has the opposite effect of having women like you less. ManWhore points out that certain guys are trying something with a woman, and they're looking at their friends to see what they think; that frame of mind is a weak one. You should be doing things because you want to, which requires self-validation. Same goes with dancing an improv traditional dance because YOU feel like it.
I got home, finally cracked open the cookbook and made the recipe, put it in the oven to braise for 2 hours. Did BrainEv and then pMemory afterwards. I'm presently at lesson 5 at pMemory, further than I've ever been. When I finally completed the biggest exercise of the day, I felt like I've hit a milestone in my life, since this memory stuff is very real, and will have an amazing impact on my life.
After pMemory, I've been studying; no songwriting, singing or guitar playing. I'll be going to bed now and catch up on my sleep.
Plays: 206 hours/plays
Today, I felt a bit better, though I got less sleep. Did gym and then school (instead of pMemory). Class went well; I'm noticing a couple of my female classmates giving me repeated eye contact and little smiles. I was much better today than yesterday (not feeling anything negative).
Had a big discovery that I shouldn't ever modify my behavior just because women/a woman likes it. In fact, it has the opposite effect of having women like you less. ManWhore points out that certain guys are trying something with a woman, and they're looking at their friends to see what they think; that frame of mind is a weak one. You should be doing things because you want to, which requires self-validation. Same goes with dancing an improv traditional dance because YOU feel like it.
I got home, finally cracked open the cookbook and made the recipe, put it in the oven to braise for 2 hours. Did BrainEv and then pMemory afterwards. I'm presently at lesson 5 at pMemory, further than I've ever been. When I finally completed the biggest exercise of the day, I felt like I've hit a milestone in my life, since this memory stuff is very real, and will have an amazing impact on my life.
After pMemory, I've been studying; no songwriting, singing or guitar playing. I'll be going to bed now and catch up on my sleep.
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