The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

I'm a little over halfway done with stage 5 and I'm having some ridiculous dreams. Last night I dreamt I was having sex with a girl sitting in a chair with a blanket over us while sitting outside...get this...a church, right next to the line of everyone going in for morning sevice. This probably has something to do with my early childhood programming of "sex is wrong". I was raised to be very religious. At a certain age I realized that just doesn't make any sense to me and I moved away from all of that. My brother is the same way. We're quite different from the rest of my family who is very religious and more like my dad was. It's probably just my subconcious showing it's absolute rejection on all levels of the age old religious guilt hovering over sex at all times and that's a great thing because if there was ANY of that left in my mind anywhere, then I want it gone yesterday.