01-10-2015, 10:35 PM
@LeoistheSun; don't know what you mean. More specifically, which part of my post you're commenting about. Do you possibly mean my anger over my manager getting all the female attention?
Stage 1, Day 7
A whole week so far.
Slept in today, and I don't blame myself. Work was very fast paced. I'm feeling much more kickass; I'm pushing out much more masculine energy, and my body seems to have pumped up 5% bigger than I remember it looking. Long story short, I'm becoming pretty buff.
Tonight, I watched a 2-hour documentary on the Freedom Riders, who intentionally went to the deep South and broke the 'rules' that segregationalists have set it place. Their strength and conviction in coming up with that decision brings tears to my eyes, even as I write about it now. It truly puts into perspective how small my problems are, and how easy they could be accomplished if I make a solid decision and stick to it.
The movie highlighted in my mind an idea that I don't hear expressed much; that people are willing to hurt, torture, maim, and kill, simply to maintain the integrity of a belief that they hold, no matter how inhumane, outlandish, or incredulous it would appear on the outside. These are beliefs that are driven into one's mind, usually before the age of 7, with little to no counter-evidence. Tackling inequality at the belief level seems to be the true solution to ending this issue, once and for all.
Having a purpose and making a true decision is a game changer; you see every element in the background very different, even though it's exactly the same as it was before. Trivial pressures and conflicts mean next to nothing. I've caught hints and glimpses of this experience, and it is very real.
Stage 1, Day 7
A whole week so far.
Slept in today, and I don't blame myself. Work was very fast paced. I'm feeling much more kickass; I'm pushing out much more masculine energy, and my body seems to have pumped up 5% bigger than I remember it looking. Long story short, I'm becoming pretty buff.
Tonight, I watched a 2-hour documentary on the Freedom Riders, who intentionally went to the deep South and broke the 'rules' that segregationalists have set it place. Their strength and conviction in coming up with that decision brings tears to my eyes, even as I write about it now. It truly puts into perspective how small my problems are, and how easy they could be accomplished if I make a solid decision and stick to it.
The movie highlighted in my mind an idea that I don't hear expressed much; that people are willing to hurt, torture, maim, and kill, simply to maintain the integrity of a belief that they hold, no matter how inhumane, outlandish, or incredulous it would appear on the outside. These are beliefs that are driven into one's mind, usually before the age of 7, with little to no counter-evidence. Tackling inequality at the belief level seems to be the true solution to ending this issue, once and for all.
Having a purpose and making a true decision is a game changer; you see every element in the background very different, even though it's exactly the same as it was before. Trivial pressures and conflicts mean next to nothing. I've caught hints and glimpses of this experience, and it is very real.
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