01-09-2015, 07:37 PM
Stage 1, Day 6,
Got up at 6:40am. At the gym, a certain young woman caught my eye. She has a cute face, and a cute little body, but then I look at her butt, and.. BOOM! She was also squating. Gotta talk to her.
I start talking to her while she's walking to the locker room. We hit it off a little bit, but she seems a bit iffy. After a brief pause, she asks: "can I have your number?" I add her in; I made the mistake of not texting myself. Maybe she forgot, maybe intentionally, but that's a bit dumb because she knows that we have a similar workout schedule.
I perhaps did the most important thing for my life; I wrote up my 'Code of Conduct' and 'Plan of Action' from BlackDragon's book. I already have a 'Mission Statement', so I didn't need to make one. I made of list of things that I want to achieve, prioritized by how much I wanted it, sorted them from 1, 3, 5, 10, and 25 years, and determined the top two goals that can be accomplished within 3 years. Everything seems so clear now.
The only thing is that I can't work on those 2 specific goals before I graduate, so I'll completely win at the 3rd and 4th goals for the next 6 months.
At work, I started getting a sense of anger. So glad I'm letting it stew, because now I know why that is. It's partially dissatisfaction with where I'm at in life, and what life is handing me. Best example: my manager, by the same first name, is a very centered, un-reactive, calm, deliberate guy. If it were on a spectrum, he's much more 'alpha' than me.
When I'm near this one girl at work, she works to make conversation with me. The other one laughs at my jokes. When other Dan is around, it's like daddy's home; he's the center of attention, and his non-reactiveness makes whatever hilarious to them. If he makes a comment, or points something out, they'll make a huge effort to lean in and participate.
This enraged me for some reason, because it shows what's possible, and it showed me that I'm not living up to it, or living it. It also showed me that I didn't get everything I needed from my first run, and that I'm a dumb-dumb for eagerly jumping into Sex Magnet.
Got up at 6:40am. At the gym, a certain young woman caught my eye. She has a cute face, and a cute little body, but then I look at her butt, and.. BOOM! She was also squating. Gotta talk to her.
I start talking to her while she's walking to the locker room. We hit it off a little bit, but she seems a bit iffy. After a brief pause, she asks: "can I have your number?" I add her in; I made the mistake of not texting myself. Maybe she forgot, maybe intentionally, but that's a bit dumb because she knows that we have a similar workout schedule.
I perhaps did the most important thing for my life; I wrote up my 'Code of Conduct' and 'Plan of Action' from BlackDragon's book. I already have a 'Mission Statement', so I didn't need to make one. I made of list of things that I want to achieve, prioritized by how much I wanted it, sorted them from 1, 3, 5, 10, and 25 years, and determined the top two goals that can be accomplished within 3 years. Everything seems so clear now.
The only thing is that I can't work on those 2 specific goals before I graduate, so I'll completely win at the 3rd and 4th goals for the next 6 months.
At work, I started getting a sense of anger. So glad I'm letting it stew, because now I know why that is. It's partially dissatisfaction with where I'm at in life, and what life is handing me. Best example: my manager, by the same first name, is a very centered, un-reactive, calm, deliberate guy. If it were on a spectrum, he's much more 'alpha' than me.
When I'm near this one girl at work, she works to make conversation with me. The other one laughs at my jokes. When other Dan is around, it's like daddy's home; he's the center of attention, and his non-reactiveness makes whatever hilarious to them. If he makes a comment, or points something out, they'll make a huge effort to lean in and participate.
This enraged me for some reason, because it shows what's possible, and it showed me that I'm not living up to it, or living it. It also showed me that I didn't get everything I needed from my first run, and that I'm a dumb-dumb for eagerly jumping into Sex Magnet.
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