01-08-2015, 08:04 PM
Stage 1, Day 5,
Plays: 84 (already!)
I accomplished a lot today; I'm still experiencing some boredom, mostly the space where my 3 hours of class + commute will fill up in 4 days. I'm getting up earlier each day; I had to force myself out of bed on Monday at 7am, now, I'm setting the clock for 6:40am. It's almost a fun game as to how I can optimize my day little by little.
The tradeoff is that I don't feel very masculine or present in the morning.
I've been experimenting with sex transmutation while songwriting, as to where I stimulate my mind with the idea of sex (perhaps the sprinkle-covered breasts, or something vanilla of the sort), then I close myself into my bathroom (which has no mirrors), and try to stay horny while thinking of the song I want to work on. It's worked pretty well on the one song I've been working on, but progress is still slow. Thankfully, I'm getting into the daily habit, or else it'd be arduously slow.
In the evening, a group of 8 got together to play some cards and board games. I pulled an Alpha 2.0 moment (from BlackDragon's book), where my female friend yelled at me one too many times (those board/card games can get pretty intense), so I politely decided to leave shortly. No bitterness, no yelling, no storming off. Just separating myself from the situation.
Speaking of which, I need a bunch of new friends. High quality, driven, upwardly mobile people.
Plays: 84 (already!)
I accomplished a lot today; I'm still experiencing some boredom, mostly the space where my 3 hours of class + commute will fill up in 4 days. I'm getting up earlier each day; I had to force myself out of bed on Monday at 7am, now, I'm setting the clock for 6:40am. It's almost a fun game as to how I can optimize my day little by little.
The tradeoff is that I don't feel very masculine or present in the morning.
I've been experimenting with sex transmutation while songwriting, as to where I stimulate my mind with the idea of sex (perhaps the sprinkle-covered breasts, or something vanilla of the sort), then I close myself into my bathroom (which has no mirrors), and try to stay horny while thinking of the song I want to work on. It's worked pretty well on the one song I've been working on, but progress is still slow. Thankfully, I'm getting into the daily habit, or else it'd be arduously slow.
In the evening, a group of 8 got together to play some cards and board games. I pulled an Alpha 2.0 moment (from BlackDragon's book), where my female friend yelled at me one too many times (those board/card games can get pretty intense), so I politely decided to leave shortly. No bitterness, no yelling, no storming off. Just separating myself from the situation.
Speaking of which, I need a bunch of new friends. High quality, driven, upwardly mobile people.
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